"not really now not any more"*
by Mandy Macdonald
it happens here
galaxies unroll in starpunctured blackness
as it happened then
firelight dances, scumbles through glass goblets
you hold me now
space cold as light years; we are afloat
as i held you there
dark timber, soft leather, colours of forest, river, sunrise
i loved you here
in infinity's moebius strip, two atoms untethered from everything
as i love you then
our hands clasped across the table; that night we thought we
would never let go
i am your past
you are mine
let me go
never have left me
time does not fly
aurora-like, it folds and pleats
the same gestures inhabit
you are no longer here
you are no longer
must i die to live with you?
must you be dead before i can love you?
* The last line of Alan Garner's "Red Shift" (London: Collins, 1973).
© 2015 Mandy Macdonald
Mandy Macdonald is an Australian writer living in Aberdeen, Scotland, and trying to make sense of the 21st and earlier (and possibly later) centuries. She has had poems published here and there in print and online. The rest of the time, she sings.
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