Devil of The Night
(Bipolar Disarrangement of Words)
by Michael Lee Johnson
Come write with me I need to take you on a brief night journey that
has already started. The devil is the night because my night has holes
in it. My brain is deep-fried then frozen in a pan and seldom goes
anywhere. Sometimes I can't even figure out how I deep-fried my
thoughts or deep-fried my thinking. I find myself very alone when I'm
perplexed like this. My breath comes out like cinnamon and my words are
lethargic on my vocal cords. I'm starting to think I'm nothing more
than a condiment or a legendary troll. Sometimes I feel like a stone
giant in my brain and sometimes I feel like a cranium dwarf. I'm not a
writer of fiction or poetry at best. I ride high at times with joy; I
ride low at time like a bent over spoon. When I mix all this mess in a
cereal bowl I want to scream out loud.
On another topic, being the shadow of who I am I reach out to touch
the snow-filled night but my fingertips don't feel the cold. Is there
something wrong with my senses between the warm and the cold within me?
The street lights the darkness of this tale I spin; must be poetry of
some sort bewitched.
I can't even write poetry without the advice of editors I don't know
that well and it makes me feel in and out of doubts. I'm clumsy with my
words and the way they form, or don't form, I guess. Sometimes I think
I'm talking to myself and there is no audience: but that's fiction,
Let me ask you, is someone crazy enough to pay me for this writing
while I remain in this institution and insurance is forced to pay the
bill? Do you think delusions will make me the writer I've always
dreamed my nightmares would lead me to? I'm not trained for things like
this you know, it could end this way; I can only write a few paragraphs
at a time.
Outside my hospital window there are snowflakes, thin, steady,
adding white shadows to dark tree limbs, there are holes in this night,
hanging so low.
I see brown doves at 3 AM; I registrar these thoughts as
Frankenstein. The devil is the night and I fall asleep with my head
near my writing pad.
© 2007 Michael Lee Johnson
Michael Lee Johnson is a freelance writer and poet,
who has created over 355 poems published in over 135 journals and
online publications to date. He is a member of Poets & Writers,
Inc and Directory of American Poets & Fictions Writers:
http://www.pw.org/. He is a member of The Illinois Authors Directory.
Illinois Center for the Book:
http://www.illinoiscenterforthebook.org/directory.html . He has been
published in the United States, Scotland, Canada, Turkey, New Zealand,
Australia, Nigeria, Fiji, India, and the United Kingdom. Michael Lee
Johnson's personal website can be found at:
http://poetryman.mysite.com/ Mr. Michael Lee Johnson lives in Chicago,
IL after spending 10 years in Edmonton, Alberta Canada during the Viet
Nam era. He is a freelance writer and poet. He is heavy influenced by
Carl Sandburg, Robert Frost, William Carlos Williams, Irving Layton,
and Leonard Cohen. Recent publications: The Orange Room
Review, Bolts of Silk, Chantarelle's Notebook, The Foliate Oak Online
Literary Magazine, Poetry Cemetery, Official Site of Laura Hird, The
Centrifugal Eye, Adagio Verse Quarterly, Scorched Earth Publishing,
Café Del Soul (The Cynic Online Magazine) and many
others. He is the author of the paperback poetry book: The
Lost American: From Exile to Freedom.
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