Issue 301, Volume 28 December 2024 / January 2025 |
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DarknessJ. B. HoganClifford Stephens feared the dark thing that lived within him. The evil, monstrous thing that drove him towards a murderous rage. It had been there as long as he could remember. It was as if he were possessed by an entity – one that urged him to seek the homicidal blackness of his soul. Only Clifford knew that the thing existed. Only he knew it had to be controlled at all times: battled, wrestled, forced back into the deepest shadows of his being. Clifford had always struggled against the dark being but he had never let it escape, never let it feed its rapacious, black spirit – he thought. He remembered stopping it from bashing his little brother's brains in with a bat when the kid was only six and had ratted on Clifford for taking the boy's comic books and hocking them at a local pawn shop. And he had held the black thing at bay when it wanted to climb out and rip his father's face off for grilling Clifford that time when the family dog and cat had somehow disappeared, vanished without a trace. No, he didn't think he had ever let it come out, except maybe that time when the Jones boy was found beaten almost to death and lying half in the small creek running behind the high school after he and Clifford had had some minor disagreement about lunch money. There had been a visit by the police and a trip to the principal's office, but the thing hid itself and Clifford was reluctantly cleared of any wrongdoing. But that was before. Things were different now. Now he worked at the Golden Years Senior Home as an orderly. Now he had to pick up after all the nasty old men and women who were waiting to die at Golden Years – the sharp-tongued harpies and trolls who bossed and ordered him around, constantly demanding this and that to make their miserable lives less painful, always exerting their authority over Clifford just because he was a worker and beneath them. The worst of the offenders was old Mr. Farris. It was he who was unwittingly forcing the dark thing inside Clifford to the front, to the verge of escape, to the point of blissful, satisfying revenge. "Get me this," Mr. Farris would order Clifford, "get me that," the old man's high-pitched whine triggering the dark thing's bloodlust like a fresh animal carcass lying at the bottom of a river in South America might start a feeding frenzy among the piranha. "Would you like me to push your chair out on the patio, Mr. Farris," the dark being asked through Clifford's gritted teeth. It was 110 degrees in the shade out on that patio. The old man wouldn't last thirty minutes. "You take me back to my room right now, you devil," Mr. Farris squawked. "What about the roof? Wouldn't you like me to take you up there where you can look over the edge and see all the grass and concrete down below?" It was only a two-story drop but that would be sufficient and very pleasing to the roiling, smoky black thing swirling inside Clifford's brain. "I'm going to report you if you don't take me to my room, right now!" "We can ride up in the elevator and if you like take the stairs down. That will really be a fast way to come down." "I'm going to scream," Mr. Farris threatened. "That would be a bad thing," Clifford heard his own voice say. "I'll have you fired," Mr. Farris spluttered. "I'll see that you never work anywhere in this town again." "Very well, sir," Clifford said, fighting for control over the thing that sought to be unleashed, to teach the old man a lesson. Clifford felt himself pushing Mr. Farris towards the elevators to take him up to his room but as they neared the lift, the chair seemed to turn of its own accord and rush recklessly through a door leading to the basement laundry. Suddenly they were at the top of the steps – alone. The chair was at the very edge of the landing, only a dozen jagged steps between it and mangled geriatric bones and flesh at the bottom. "Help," Mr. Farris cried out weakly, "somebody help me." "It's such a short trip," Clifford heard that voice speaking through him again. "Then blessed peace." "Help," the old man squeaked. Clifford, the smoky being within him on the verge of complete escape, wanted to give in, wanted to give the old man a little push and send him sailing down the stairs, felt the unspeakable joy it would bring. He leaned against the chair, putting his weight against it. As he did, the old man turned and looked up, fear and pleading in his eyes. "Oh, please," he begged, "don't. I won't tell." Shaking his head as if to fling the demon out of his mind, Clifford saw the old man clearly, then, saw his aging, sorrowful face in all its humanity. With an impulsive waving of his left hand, he fought the blackness within, brought the monster under control. He eased the chair away from the stairs. "Uff," the old man exhaled. "Let me get you back to your room, Mr. Farris," Clifford told the old man. "I'm terribly sorry." "I won't tell anyone," the old man promised. "It's okay," Clifford said, feeling a wave of relief spread warmly through his body. "It's all okay now." After returning Mr. Farris to his room, Clifford checked out at the front desk. "You're quitting?" the shift supervisor asked with a raised eyebrow. "Not quitting," Clifford said with a big sigh, "saving myself." "Huh?" the supervisor said. Clifford paid no attention. He had won this battle and that was all that mattered. You could get another job anywhere. If he let the monster inside him get out, he would lose everything – even his mortal soul.
BebarlangsSergio PalumboSince that old man had been taken to his hospital room, the doctor had sensed he was different. The report said he had been found ill from some people on Dampalitan Island, far off the coast. That place was known for its clear azure waters: such an atmosphere was probably fitter for some tourists more than for a hermit, like that man seemed to be, anyway. There was a backdrop of verdant bush on the other side of the island and that was the spot where those strangers had saved him during a trip inside the jungle covering a wide part of the land: most of that was a lush expanse no one had gone exploring before, very likely. The white buildings of the County Hospital in Pagbilao were the only medical facility within this municipality in the province of Quezon, Philippines. Doctor Arvin Chua had examined many cases over the course of his twenty-year-long career, but he had never seen such a weird man. Dark-skinned, two chestnut eyes, a tall and emaciated body: his features made him look like a local, but Arvin couldn't figure out from which tribe he was exactly: truth was that there were over fifty ethnic groups in the Philippines. The patient had no documents with him, didn't speak.The nurses had noticed that while asleep he always looked perturbed, his rest always fidgety. On a sunny morning, Doctor Arvin entered his room, addressing the old man in the bed- You've had some difficult days while on Dampalitan Island. I respect your will not to speak with us or tell us anything about you, you must have your reasons…But given your very bad heart conditions, you could become aggravated or fall unconscious every moment from now. You need to be under general anaesthetic in order to have a resolving operation on you. I know you didn't give us permission to make you undergo such a treatment so far, but when a worsening occurs and unconsciousness comes, if your life is in danger, then there will be no other choice for our medical team…- The old man stared at him in silence and didn't replied at all. Over the next days, Arvin was informed that the patient had tried to escape from the hospital. So, give his instability, he had been necessarily confined to his bed. Anyway, the doctor would have never expected what happened next. Arvin was surprised when the nurses told him that the man had just attempted at killing himself by means of an iron stick near the windows.The devices attached to his body had soon signaled his movements, so the attendants were able to intervene just on time. Modern technology had saved his life, again. The resolving operation was set for the same day: the medical team started the procedure at 18:00 PM. They, too, didn't know what was ahead of them, anyway… As soon as Heherson ( this was the old man's name) became unconscious cause of the general anaesthetic, he felt completely lost. The man knew perfectly that now he had no more grip on his will, even though he had taught himself to control his mind while asleep, this was a totally different situation Heherson wasn't able to handle, unfortunately. For many years he had been living within that jungle, afar from civilization and all the people. He had forced himself to stay alone, just like a hermit, because of what had occurred previously to his family. Heherson wished he weren't what he was,but there was no way to change it. Within his native tribe the ones like him were called Bebarlangs: there was a sort of bad curse upon them, their mind had some special powers that let their astral bodies become completely free and ungovernable while asleep, going continuously around in search of preys to feed on. "Psychic vampires" the modern people would have called them, if they had ever been aware of their existence. Unfortunately, the nearest preys Heherson had fed on the same night his powers had been unleashed for the first time were just his beloved wife and child, asleep along with him inside their poor dwelling. His mind had been feeding on them until the man had deprived the two of all their life energies: they were already dead when he awoke in the morning. Desperate, incapable of forgiving himself for what he had done, although unwillingly, Heherson had left his small village forever and found a forested lonely place where to live like a hermit. Down there, where the trees waved because of the mild wind during the afternoon, he had learned how to control his astral body even over the course of the sleep so to feed himself only on the energies coming from the wild animals living in the area. Heherson knew such a "mental food" was not enough to let him remain strong and healthy, he wished some tasteful human energies, but he was to stay there, fighting his desire. The man had no other choice, as he didn't want to put anyone else in danger, anymore. He had forced himself to become a sort of vegetarian in a world where meat was abundant: he was able to feel it almost everywhere, in the outside world.But he stood, anyway. Until that day, when his heart had fallen ill, his body had been found by chance from some people on the island.They didn't know what they had done! Heherson would have liked better to die than to be taken back to civilization, again… And now that he was under general anaesthetic, his astral body without restraint, the man's famished mind was dangerously free. He stared at the white buildings of the County Hospital: a place full of human bodies and minds, it has been a long time since Heherson hadn't been overindulging… He was going to cease his long diet, finally!
ForeverMichele DutcherXam climbed the stone path leading up the hillside. He drew a breath when he saw a man-made cave, uttering "The Mantle of the Judge." He slowed as he stepped inside, allowing the darkness to soothe him, as much as was possible. He opened his eyes and a soft glow brightened the room, revealing five semi-circles carved into the wall of the cave. Within each of these sat what appeared to be semi-transparent, androgynous, humans. "My search for you has been exhausting," said Xam. A pentagon appeared between the man and the five. "We have discovered that humans often find their own answers while on their journey. An answer found by oneself is much better than that given by another. When someone does appear at our doorstep, we know they are desperate for an answer. You may ask your question." "My mother is Armasis of Luna, as you know." Of course they knew – these five were the Artificial Intelligence beings overseeing five planets. "The Alliance is well aware of who she is and knows she has been slated for deactivation." "I am here to oppose that verdict. Certainly the verbal ravings of an old woman with dementia can not be so harmful as to demand death." "In truth, the alliance would not be killing the woman – rather it would be withdrawing the gift of eternal life. When we offered forever-life to your family, it was with the understanding that they would uphold our laws. Your mother will be transported off-world to live out the remainder of her natural life." Xam nodded, affirming the totally logical answer given by the one called the Eternal Judge. "The fault lies not in my mother – rather in the act of crime done by my sister, and she is dead. Her action was simply an act of protest against the absence of the possibility of change within the Alliance." The room darkened into a reddish hue. "Your mother carries the seed of disorder that sprouted within your sister, giving birth to the evil action." "This action will not happen again – as I tell you again, my sister remains dead." "As long as your mother is among us, there is the chance of social enthrophy. You knew our axioms before you asked to live within our realm." One by one the five representatives spoke in turn. "Entropy is the foe." "Information must be preserved." "Life must be preserved." "Energy must be preserved." "Order must be preserved." The voice of the pentagon echoed off the sides of the cave: "Your sister disobeyed all of these axioms and your mother is in danger of disobeying as well." "Certainly there can't be that many people who might be swayed to commit the same evil by talking to my mother. There can't be that many people who are that desperate." The pentagon was silent for almost a minute. "Every time your sister's name is mentioned the danger of disorder increases." Xam's continence brightened for the first time. "I could talk with my mother, making sure she never mentions my sister's name again." "Her dementia will prevent that. The physicians tried to dig out all memories of her daughter, but the evil is still there." "Give me leave to try," pleaded the man who looked to be forty but was actually well over 600 years old. The five spoke in unison. "You have our leave to try. Have no doubt that saying the name will result in a resending of Forever-life." Planet Gegton 3524 A.T. The elderly woman puttered around her kitchen, much as any mother is likely to do when a son comes to visit. "Sweetheart," she said while pouring liquid into a cup, "would you go get Pam? I think she's on the porch." Xam took the pot from her hands, motioning for her to sit. She did as directed, upset by his insistence. "Mom, we must talk. Look at me." He drew a breath. "I can't get my sister – do you remember why?" The woman looked at him blankly. "Have I done something wrong, dear?" "Mom, my sister killed herself." "No, no, you're wrong. Pam is on the porch outside. How can you say such a thing?" She tried to back away. "Mom, she killed herself five months ago." He watched as a horror of understanding swept over her and she began to weep. "Mom, mom, you must never say her name again. The council is listening all the time." She looked up from her tears. "If I never say her name again, how will people know that someone as good and gentle as Pam ever existed?" "It was evil for her to commit suicide and now it is a crime for us to say her name." She fought the notion, crying as Xam held her. Finally she relented, regaining some control. "Mom. You must promise me to never say her name again. If you do the Council of Five will take you from me and I'll never see you again, forever." She nodded weakly. "I won't say her name again, I promise." The old woman straightened up. Her son sat back in his chair, giving a sigh of relief. "I took Steise to Ferjuk for her birthday." His mother began to drink the tea. "How is Steise?" The woman suddenly looked around. "Dear, where's Pam? Could you go out onto the porch and get her?" The woman disappeared. Xam sat alone for a while in the empty kitchen. He began to sob into his hands. Then his sobbing stopped as he rose to his feet, lifted his fist, and shouted: "Pamela Greylag second child of Armasis of Luna, princess of the royal line of…" and he was gone.
TOTCH and GO
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A small icon appeared on Hoss Willard's taskbar. He had a new email. "Hmm. Okay. I'll look at it later. They can wait. They always email me early, before it's really serious."
Willard returned to his roast beef and pepper jack cheese sandwich. His life was simple these days. He was officially a Special Consultant to the Government with a cushy Million-a-Year stipend and a strict rule that he would only take one case per month. That was more than hubris however. His gifts came at a terrible price - his elliptical insights carried a terrible price: He risked driving anyone he conversed with into a slippery brand of insanity.
After his sandwich, Hoss Willard took a nap. After all, his consultancy problems were big stewing issues, not tactical emergecies. A few hours were never at issue. It was like how the late Chessmaster Capablanca avoided excitement because he saw endgames. By the time they called on him, the Government had already assigned the corporals to take the phone calls. His duties were more diffuse. At 8Pm he decided to look at the email:
"You have your usual three days of study followed by our request for your First Piece of Advice."
"Problem: Since the capture of Bin Laden there is something wrong with the tenor of the news. Please advise. My associate Cadet Smith will take your initial reply at this email address."
Willard mused, "Oho! This was one of the better ones! Plenty of room to thrash it about." He pondered it for is usual Three Days then sent his first Piece of Advice:
<"He has done a lot, though often flawed,
<"He set the stage, like a court hall mage,
<"But there is much to do and he must not lose;
<"Even now there is a path that he must choose;
<—
<"He conquered racism easily, he proved we have moved on.
<"But the trade he had to make, was Hollywood for the Pentagon.
<"Now the decison has been made, the platform has been laid,
<"The choice has been made, for me and you - Big Brother.
<"With a side of Aldous Huxley, it is a Brave New World
<"Your task is now to restore the faith, in the country for me and you…
Per instructions Cadet Smith blind-forwarded this to the committee of two who each only read one half of the total message. Now, if the Government itself could avoid going crazy, there might yet be hope for this land.
© TaoPhoenix, 2011 The End For many years I had collected books, my favorites being those that contained the weird tales of cosmic horror by H. P. Lovecraft. The language of those tales of eldritch planes; alien geometries; arcane abominations; and protagonists wrestling with gibbering madness seemed to be a melancholy aria to me, in tune with my very soul. But as certain recent events in my life occurred, I felt my interest in Lovecraft's work begin to veer into obsession. At every opportunity I would scour the dark and musty stacks of used book stores for rare editions of Lovecraft's work. In my quest I would, from time to time, come across another who shared in my bibliomania. And in each case when I befriended one, I would be introduced to others who also shared our strange obsession.
This was the case with Adrian Sudlow. Reaching almost simultaneously for the same battered copy of The Outsider and Others buried in the musty corner of one of the Dinkytown book stores is how Adrian and I first met. He looked like a college student, probably twenty years my junior, although a bit on the alternative side, with body piercings and tattoos. I noticed the dark and sunken character of his eyes and a wanton glassy stare that I figured was the hallmark of a drug addict, but possibly something far worse. We immediately began to parley about the book, and only after I agreed to buy him lunch did he release his hold on the cover.
As I nursed a cup of decaf, Adrian wolfed down a burger and started telling me of the others he knew who were also fans of the dark mythos. Before long he was hinting at secrets he was not at liberty to divulge, rituals he had participated in, and occult experiences he'd had. It was only then that I realized Adrian was a true believer. One who thought Lovecraft was not a writer, but a prophet of the dark intangible, that his stories were inspired by eldritch dreams, and that his words held illicit knowledge. I had to fight to contain myself, for I had no patience for his type. I knew that anyone who had been exposed to the mind-twisting enigmas of the uncaring cosmos would not be so glib. And yet, if there was only the slightest chance that he was legitimate… I felt myself urged to meet with him again… and with his friends.
"This is the place?" my cousin Charlie asked.
I looked out of the passenger window of the car at the weed-choked parking lot behind a moldering abandoned factory. The car sat under the lot's only security light, a wan cone impregnated with millers and mosquitoes.
"Yah, I guess so. Bad idea?" I asked.
"Well, this should be entertaining," he said. He took a seat on the hood and took a swig of beer.
Adrian had called earlier that day. He seemed nervous, but told me the group had approved his petition. I had been invited to a ceremony. Charlie, who had crashed at my apartment for the weekend, was itching for something to do, so I agreed to come.
Ominous clouds crowded the moon in the late summer sky. Shadows were everywhere. Then six figures came out of the amorphous darkness at the edge of the lot. They were all clad in fiendish costumes, black robes with capes of long, dried grasses. Their heads were covered with heavy monstrous masks, each carved with an expression more perverse than the last.
They formed a circle around me and began to sway back and forth. The sound of their grass cloaks was like the rasp of files.
"Watch it," Charlie yelled heckling. I felt dizzy.
They lifted their legs and arms in an awkward primitive dance and circled close around taunting me with waving fingers. And then close up under the pale light, I realized that their costumes were nothing more than Halloween remnants and thrift store junk. One of the figures fell down onto the pavement. His mask fell off with a plastic clatter. He laughed with drunken delight and clutched his ribs. It was Adrian. It was all a prank.
I felt queasy and suffocated. Charlie was laughing. And I realized too late that I should not be here, that I had been the dupe of an unspeakable evil. In my head I could hear an angry chuffing. I screamed with fear but everything blurred and "Run!" became a distant hollow echo.
I awoke in the car next to Charlie. The streetlights sped by in a lilt. All the blood had rushed from Charlie's face; his hands shook as he struggled to keep hold of the wheel as we careened down the boulevard.
I didn't need to ask. My hands were stained with blood.
It had happened months before. Randomly. You might say I was abducted, but that implies motive. There were no rituals or chants. I was just in my apartment enjoying my mundane existence, when suddenly, I was snatched up by the uncaring cosmos, a mote in the wind. My mind was stretched across the maddening gulf of endless space. The size of the universe is unfathomable to the human brain; the magnitude blinded me with insanity. My mind was stretched thinner and thinner until it passed into the formless abyss far beyond any stars. Eventually… I came back, but when I did, something came back with me, an undimensioned stowaway, shackled to my bones, and just behind my eyes.
Only Lovecraft's stories came close to describing my experience. I devoured everything he'd written, hoping for answers, while the abomination grew within me.
Lately I have been having dreams where the abomination is not looking out of me, instead I am looking out of it. Stranger still, I haven't seen Charlie since that night, but for the last five nights I've dreamed of Charlie screaming and the red of his blood dripping down my thread-like fingers.
© J. Davidson Hero, 2011 The End Mark Holder the local mailman climbed up the six-steps that led to Glen's door. He rapped three times then waited. Another three raps, and after a five second wait with no sound coming from behind the door, Mark left the notice to pick up a certified letter at the post office.
Once back on the sidewalk, Mark looked up at the old-framed house and glanced at the un-kept lawn and flower-bed that once were the pride of the neighborhood. But not any more. Not since Glen's mother passed away years ago. A birdbath sitting alone and still upright and able to hold rainwater for a few days, remained unchanged by time or events that secretly grew their way into the rumors and stories now surrounding the old-framed house.
Mark shot a quick look up at a second-story window, and observed a shadowy figure withdraw itself.
Glen watched Mark deliver mail to the Martins, his next door neighbor.
"What didn't you kill him?" Glen's dead brother said. "You killed me when we were playing fire-escape tag at Henley school. Because I threatened to tell Mom about the cigarette you smoked. Huh? You pushed me off the third floor landing."
"That was your fault. You shouldn't have said you will tell!" Glen said. Glen's dead brother Tyler stared at him out of the mirror above the field-stone fireplace. Behind Tyler, his mother, his aunt Rose, his sister, Kayla, his other friend, Don, and the three dogs that he killed when only eight-years old, stared at him. One dog silently showed its teeth.
"You are the prisoner within a prison that you built. Ha, we might be dead but you are not alive!! Ha!" Don said. "No, we can go and come here as we please, but you are stuck here in this stone-house with every door bolted, every window locked and every visitor turned away. Even you ex-wife who must have known you better than you knew yourself! Ha, what a loser."
"I can't help it," Glen said. "Something I don't understand washes over me—it takes control—it becomes me. I can't stop it!
"Oh-my-God. Did you all hear that?" Kayla said. "My poor, poor brother…the little boy that could never control himself. No, wet the bed, get into my diary. Hide all the candy and cookies so that no one could have one. Oh, Glen, Glen what a little bastard you were
"See what your brother has done, Kayla," Gretta, Glen's and Kayla's mother. "He has made a fortress and now shuns the world because he doesn't want to go to the Electric Chair. No friends anymore, no wife anymore; in fact no family anymore. Just this house and Glen with his electric trains and computer and T.V. as his friends"
"I told you I can't control it!! Why didn't any of you listen to me?" Glen said.
"Listen to you? Listen to all your ranting and raving and pouting about things? Listen to how you blamed all you problems on others! Listen to how all the teachers and Sunday school teachers had it out for you!" Gretta said.
"You set me on fire when I was asleep. You little son-of-a-bitch. An alcoholic like me, helpless and friendless. You killed me for what? Nothing!" Rose said.
Glen picked up a chair and smashed it into the mirror with such forces that both the mirror and the chair broke-up into small pieces, and dropped before the fireplace. He walked into the kitchen and pushed all the dishes and pota and pans onto the floor that were piled up at the sink. He opened the basement door, but stopped just as he was about the go down and view the graves. No, he thought, let them alone.
Glen turned all the burners on at the gas stove and opened the oven. He blew out all the flames and let the gas ooze out and around the kitchen. He turned on a fan and aimed it over the stove so that the gas would flow out into the living room and dinning room. The old stove didn't have an automatic shut-off valve that closed when it sensed no flame.
Glen slowly walked into the living room and sat down on a comfortable chair that he used to watch television. He looked up at the cobwebs and dirty curtains and pictures with dust on the top edges and all were slanting. He took out a cigarette but didn't light it.
"We are waiting for you." Glen thought he heard something and looked around, but nothing present. "Yes we all are waiting for you, here." Again he heard something only this time he understood what was said.
"I can't control it—please you must believe me. I-can't-control-it!!" Glen yelled.
Dizziness started to overtake Glen as he sat in his chair. The gas, he thought has filled the downstairs. It must be dense.
Glen picke up his lighte, placed the cigarette in his month, but before he click his lighter, he said again, "I-can't-control-it." He then click to light a bright-blue flame dance out.
Mark was having coffee at the local convience store to blocks away. The explosion sounded muffled but loud enough that it could be heard. Mark and some other patrons walked out and watched the smoke rise up. With a few minutes police and fire-truck were scrambled.
Mark stood and watched, then turned to one of the patrons and said, "I just delivered mail there about a half-hour ago.
The other patron said back, "Lucky you weren't late on your route today!"
© George T. Philibin, 2011 The End
Across the Maddening Gulf
J. Davidson Hero
- Winner -
Nobody UnderstandsGeorge T. Philibin