Aphelion Editorial 027
The Senior Editor's usual drivel about whatever...
by Dan L. Hollifield
What is wrong with me? Am I the only person on the planet who feels no desire at all to go see the new "Star Wars" movie?
I saw the previews for "A New Hope" while I was still in high
school, or shortly thereafter, and was hooked. I bought the paperback
the first time I saw it. I bought every magazine I saw that had
articles about it. I stood in line opening night to see it. I saw it a
dozen times or more during its first run. And I waited breathlessly
for the sequels - both of which I saw multiple times in theaters during
their own first runs. I bought the soundrack albums, the comic books,
the videos - even the special edition ones, the computer games... In
short, I was the typical fan.
I've even had friends who had the soundtrack played at their
wedding- and I didn't laugh.
So why don't I want to go see the new one? I've seen the ads,
the movie looks good. I like the idea of more history from the "Star
Wars" universe being added - something that I'd been waiting for and
wanting since I first learned that "A New Hope" was to be part 4 of a
series. I even wished that George Lucas would go ahead and release the
rest of the serial chapters in book form so that I could read the whole
story. I like detail, lots of detail - "Dune" is one of my favorite
books of all time - and I enjoyed everything about all three of the
first "Star Wars" movies.
So where did I get lost from the wonder? Did I change? Was it
that theater tickets had tripled in price in the last 25 years? Was it
the hype? Was it that I just (gasp!) grew up?
I've been a Sci-fi fan since an early age. The first book
that I ever checked out of a school library was Jules Verne's "Journey
to the Center of the Earth" back when I was in the 4th grade. My
parents bought me "Tom Swift Jr." books, "Dig Allen, Space Explorer"
books, H.G. Wells books, and more. I've seen every sci-fi TV series
that I can think of, I own over 2500 sci-fi and fantasy paperbacks,
I've bought masses of comic books. I haunted the library when I was in
college - every day I'd read something new. I drove 90 miles to see the
first "Alien" movie. I've never lost my love for sci-fi, for adventure,
but still I have no desire to go see "Phantom Menace".
So what has changed? I don't know - maybe I'll never know - but
something is different. I'm going to try and force myself to go to a
theater this week and see "Phantom Menace", but the desire to do so
isn't there. Which is strange, because I really can't wait to go see
"Mystery Men" later this month when it comes out. I guess that tells me
that its not the theater itself that I'm avoiding, but just this movie.
I guess that its a silly thing to babble about, but it still worries
me. I feel as if I've lost something over the years, something besides
my youth. But I've also gained a lot over the years. Now I can write my
own adventures. Is that it? Because I'm now a writer I'm avoiding
someone else's work? Nah. I can't accept that. I won't accept that.
I will go see the movie. I won't just wait for it to come out
on video. If you see me at the theater, be gentle. It'll be my first
time in a long time.
Thanks for your time.
© 1999 Dan L. Hollifield
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