The Holes
in the Sky
By Vera Searles
The
day the holes appeared in the sky was the beginning of the next Productivity
Era. The Dwellers had been told that the
change would start on the last day of memrix, in the
year twenty-seven twenty-six.
At
her obwindow, Keesha stood
watching the clouds ferment and roil.
What had been soft puffs of serenity now became shadowy slits of dark
matter. Keesha
looked down at her son, not yet two years of memrix,
his eyes fastened on the
holes in the sky. He telemented, “Where is the sky going, Mama?”
She
replied, “The Dwin are
sucking it down into blackness. Don’t
fear, Jaybo, our domiorb is
shielded. Nothing can harm us here,
inside.”
“But
the grass is going, too,” the child telemented,
pointing.
From
the obwindow, Keesha
watched as the green play space turned gray, then black. Birds, caught in flight, disappeared into the
dark matter. Flowers and shrubs drooped,
then fell apart into gray dust.
Later,
after Jaybo was napset, she
snapped her speaker into the wavenet. “I am Keesha. I request a reprieve from the change, until
my son is older.”
The
buzzing noise of the Dwin sounded in her memrix. “Denied.”
“Why?”
Keesha asked.
She
heard the Dwin conferring, but then they clamped the
silence shield over their voices. The Dwin were Paradroids, from the
Planet Celesius.
They were short, round beings that dressed alike in white and red tunics
and looked alike, male and female. The
only difference was the topaz jewel that dangled from the female’
s chin. They had perfected
technologies beyond any in the galaxy, and were experts at telekinesis,
telepathy, and shape shifting. They had
implanted in each Dweller a granule of crystal behind the right ear that gave
them access to the Dweller’ s memrix.
While
she waited, Keesha looked up at the sky. Each hole was spreading, touching another,
turning in upon itself with a film of anti-matter.
Her
mind buzzed as the Dwin replied, “Request denied
because your son must participate in the new Productivity Era, as must all
Dwellers.”
“But
he has not completed his two year memrix!” Keesha protested.
“This
is the last day of input of old memrix,” the Dwin droned.
Keesha felt herself becoming aggravated and pushed the
easeout valve in her arm. A flood of tranquility surged through her
veins, and she continued her argument in a logical, sensible manner. “ He has had less
then two years of memrix. The limited supply of visions and images from
a two-year period is not enough to last until the next change. His mind will be blank and unused. This will not benefit the community.”
Again
the Dwin clamped their silence shield over their
voices as they conferred. Then they
buzzed, “You forfeited your son’s right to a reprieve at the time your husband
died. We granted a reject of those
events in your son’ s memrix. In place of his father’s death, the space was
used for eduvisits.
He has many fine images of ancient art and sculpture.”
“It’s
better than watching his father die,” Keesha
agreed. The scene was firmly locked in
her own memrix, but she seldom upmented
it, for it was too painful. Her husband Miklo had been a scientist, searching out new types of time
travel in the overlaps of the space-time continuum, by using negative energy to hold open
wormholes. He had succeeded in keeping
one open in the backspace of time, but it suddenly exploded before time
appeared on the other side. Miklo became a spatter of quantum foam particles that
floated away into Farspace. Keesha often
wondered if it had been the Dwin’s doing, for they
did not approve of space travel, preferring that the Dwellers remain close by
where they could be easily controlled.
On
the wavenet, the Dwin were
responding. “For the benefit of the
community, your son has no right to another reprieve. He must participate in the new Productivity
Era along with all other Dwellers Reject stands. Reprieve denied.” The Dwin withdrew
their connection.
Keesha stared out of her obwindow. The world outside was black. Her domiorb was
surrounded by darkness, and all the others in the community stood silent,
unseen. The orbs were free floating and
never touched each other because of their anti-magnetix
shields. During the new Productivity
Era, Keesha and Jaybo would exist in this isolated space, their minds
drawing upon various phases of memrix to create a new
surround for themselves. At the end of
the new Productivity Era, the Dwin would bring all
the new surrounds together and the residents of all the orbs would share in the next era
of memrix.
Keesha recalled the last change, just before Jaybo was born. The
ocean in which the orbs had been floating turned into sky, and the various
aquatic life forms that swam past the obwindow became
trees, birds, flowers. Each domiorb had a green play space for the children, and a sun
that shone down daily to give light and warmth.
Jaybo finished his napset and came to
stand at the window. “Mama, where did
the sun go?”
“Look
in your memrix, and you’ll find the sun,” Keesha told him.
“I
see it. It is a big red ball,” the child
telemented, his hands forming a circle.
“That’s
right. Now upment all the other things that you like.”
She
gathered the child in her arms and stared into the darkness outside as she
listened to his recitation: “Green
grass. A pretty
flower. A red
and yellow bird. A swing I sit in
while you push me. A
tree with branches that I will be allowed to climb when I am old enough.”
In
the darkened obwindow Keesha
saw their reflections - - a two-year-old child and his twenty-four year old
mother, both with black hair and slender bodies. With her free hand, she pushed a strand of
hair away from her slate blue eyes that glinted with anger at the Dwin
When the child hesitated, Keesha telemented, “Now go to your art section and upment the paintings of all the masters.”
The
boy nodded and began another litany. Keesha hoped the images in his memrix
wouldn’t give out too soon.
* *
*
The
change had never lasted this long. At
every nine-hour interval, when Keesha’s time on the wavenet was scheduled, she snapped in. “I am Keesha. When will the change be completed?”
“Soon,”
the Dwin replied.
“Can
you be more specific?”
There
was a long buzz before the Dwin replied, “Data
unavailable.”
“What
about our food supply?” Keesha asked. “You have decreased our portions again.” Ample supplies had always come through the
delivery chute in the roof of the domiorb, and
requests for extras or favorites had always been met immediately, but now only
the barest minimums were being shuttled down the chute. “Can we have more protein? The child is in his growing stage.”
“Request
denied.”
“And
we are running out of memrix!”
“Play
repeat.”
“We
already have. Many
times over.”
“Request
denied.”
“I
demand to speak to your leader,” Keesha said. Zimora had often
presented herself to the Dwellers through their memrix. She looked like all other Dwin.
“Zimora is not available,” the wavenet
buzzed.
The
Dwin had never before been this evasive, this
miserly. Had something gone wrong? Something the Dwin
weren’t revealing? “I demand to know
what is happening!” Keesha
shouted into the wavenet, then
realized it was dead air.
* *
*
During
the following weeks, their portions were decreased again, with no explanation
from the Dwin.
Each time Keesha asked the reason, the reply
was the same: “Data unavailable.”
Although she gave the child most of her own food, he grew noticeably
thinner, and lethargic. He had no
interest in the patterns of his memrix, and even the hologames Keesha played with him
did little to cheer him.
The
tranquility serum with which she filled her easeout
valve was no longer being delivered down the utility chute. Keesha worried over
this, for to be without the serum was uncharted territory. How would she react in a crisis? She could remember no time when there was no
serum to deflect all anxieties and annoyances.
Each
evening as she rocked the boy to sleep in her arms, Keesha
remented her memrix to the
time before the Dwin….
* *
*
When
Keesha was little, her parents, both warriors, had
been killed during a battle in the long war with Dwinworld. All she had left of her mother and father
were their holoimages. She remented them
often, visiting them and Miklo in the Delta wave
prism.
After
the loss of her parents, she had been placed in a wardage
where, at age fifteen, she met Miklo, and they were nupted. He had
advance degrees in space-time technologies, and they were given quarters where
he had access to all ongoing interspace experiments
within his own laboratory.
For
many years their home planet of Belleterre had been
at war with Dwinworld, and when it finally became
obvious that the Dwin would soon occupy their planet,
the Council agreed
to a treaty. The Dwin
would own all Realworld territory, while the Dwellers
and their families were assigned to floating domiorbs. As long as they didn’t interfere with the Realworld activities of the Dwin
and obeyed the memrix experiments that the Dwin conducted, the Dwellers would be provided with great
luxury. All their needs would be met;
they had only to make their requests on the wavenet.
* * *
It
always seemed to Keesha more like being a prisoner in
isolation. The word circled through her memrix, dragging hatred and distrust with it. She stared out through her obwindow at the darkness.
There were no stars, no moon.
Gone were the birds, the green space, the sky, the
clouds. Gone was the freedom to see
nature, to feel, smell,
observe, meet friends at Council House, enjoy other people. Nothing existed outside of memrix. The Dwin controlled her life.
She hated them.
The
first patterns of memrix the Dwin
had provided had been of lush greenery with many species of wildlife. Monkeys swung past the obwindow
on vines, and many multi-colored parrots festooned the foliage, their chatter
sending a cacophony of sound throughout space.
Then
the Dwin made the first change, and after a short
time, when the darkness was lifted, the domiorbs
floated beneath a great body of blue-gray water. When the last change came, it too was short,
and Keesha had been delighted that Jaybo had been given a large green space in which to run
and play with his holofriends.
But
now - - for this change, this was too long a time of darkness. Keesha knew, from a
place beyond her memrix, beyond her holoments, that she must try to escape. And only one way was possible - - through the
holes in the sky that were no longer visible.
Against
her breast, the child murmured in his sleep.
Her arms tightened round his small body as Keesha
searched for a solution.
She
remented the holonotes of Miklo’s journal, but the scientific symbols were too
complex and abstruse for her to decipher.
Somewhere in his memrix was the translation
pattern for all technological equations.
To explore Miklo’s memrix,
Keesha must enter the Delta wave.
Gently
she placed her son on the sleep mat and lay down next to him. As she focused on the multidimensional
diamond prism in the ceiling above, it slowly began to revolve, and soon Keesha entered the holoment of Miklo’s mind.
“Hello
my dearest one,” he said from the Delta wave pattern of the prism.
“My
love,” she said. “I am lonely without
you. But I have decided that Jaybo and I must escape.
I need to receive the proper mind-bits for holding open wormholes with
negative energy, as you performed in your last experiment.”
His
holoimage nodded.
“I’ll transfer them into your memrix right
now. But Keesha,
please be careful. You must slip through
quickly. That was why I didn’t succeed -
- I was in awe of my own accomplishment and didn’ t use the photon
beamer immediately to capture the negative energy. Don’t make the same mistake.”
“I’ll
try not. We have no choice but to do
this, because the Dwin are withholding the food
supplies. There is no easeout serum, either.
I will try to reach a parallel world.”
“You
must plan your course precisely through the holes in the sky in order to reach
the safety of the next parallel dimension.
Each dimension has its own frequency, and to move forward you need to
add one extra photon. To move back, it
takes one less. Convergence produces
zero point energy. No one has ever seen
the time stream, but it is my theory that time hangs like threads all around us
and that we travel through it on our own space paths. Each hole will lead to another, but if the
space-time continuum has become folded back upon itself, you will encounter
circularity.”
Keesha nodded.
“I understand. But to remain here
as we are will bring starvation. We must
escape.”
“Then Godspeed, my love. In my laboratory you’ll find the compuments for producing negative energy ions to load your
photon beamers and for powering your transpods.”
On
the mat beside Keesha, Jaybo
stirred. “I must go now. Jaybo wakens. Goodbye my dearest.”
Miklo’s holoimage slid inside
the prism as Jaybo sat up, breaking the Delta wave
pattern. “Who were you talking to,
Mama?”
“Your father’s holoimage When you are older, I’ll teach you how to
enter the Delta wave, where you will visit the holoimages
of those no longer with us.”
Jaybo’s small forehead frowned. “Are they happy where they are?”
“Yes,”
Keesha replied.
It was better for him to think that happiness existed there. She prepared the last food supply the Dwin had sent, and while the child ate, she went into the
laboratory to make ready for the trip.
* *
*
With
the equation that Miklo had encoded into her memrix, Keesha entered the scrip into the
governing sensor of the photon blaster. When small bursts of anti-matter exploded within the particle
accelerator, she compulocked them into her photon
beamers. Then she inserted the
four beamers into the jet openings of her transpod.
Jaybo’s smaller transpod was
also equipped, and the child would be protected by the automatic release valve
that Keesha controlled from her own pod. When Jaybo finished
eating, she called him to her and explained.
“You must step inside this pod, for we are going on a journey.”
After
she changed him into his travel tunic, he put his feet into the wedge-shaped
titanium pod, and she then attached his lifeline to her own controls. She smiled.
It was like an umbilical cord.
Once
Keesha had locked his faceplate into place, the child
telemented, “Won’t the Dwin
be angry if they see us leaving without telling them?”
“No,”
Keesha said.
“They won’t see us leave. I have
placed a visiblock around our transpods,
and I’m leaving holoimages of us here in the domiorb.” She
entered all the necessary scrips into the cylinder,
and their holoimages materialized. She programmed them to speak to each other at
intermittent intervals and to call the Dwin on the wavenet to protest the lack of tranquility serum.
“Are
you ready, Jaybo?”
Keesha telemented. He nodded, his eyes shining with
excitement. Keesha
felt both fear and exhilaration surge throughout her body and mind. Then the stark reality of what she was doing
chilled her. Was she making the right
decision? What if they became entrapped
within a wormhole where time was circular?
She had little to rely on except her own determination and the patterns
of her memrix.
Her son’s’ life was in her hands.
But hadn’t it always been, here in the domiorb,
where they were prisoners of the Dwin?
She
put on her own travel tunic, a two-piece layer of tights and overskirt. Then she touched the obwindow
release pad and pushed the viewpanel aside.
After
enclosing herself in her transpod, Keesha activated the control rods. Oxygen flowed into the interiors, and the rad nullification system automatically popped on. When she switched on the illuminator
controls, a strip of bright light shone from her helmet and her son’s, lighting
their way into the darkness before them.
They glided out.
* * *
Keesha upmented their course
into the control rods and set their body temps for normal. ”Jaybo, you must
tell me if you start to feel cold. I’ll
adjust your pod to keep you comfortable.”
“It
feels all right, Mama. Are we going
far?”
“I
don’t know. I’m following the scrip your
father implanted in my memrix, but it doesn’t give
the length of transtime.”
“It’s
so black everywhere, except for our light beacons,” the child telemented.
Keesha realized how frightening this must be for a
two-year-old “Just
keep looking straight ahead, Jaybo, where the light
shines. Don’t be afraid. We can pretend it’s a hologame.”
“I’m
not afraid. I just want everything to go
back the way it was before the Dwin took away the
green play space, and the sun.”
Keesha sighed.
“That’s what I want, too, Jaybo. I wish we could turn Dwinworld
back into Belleterre, when we were in charge of our
own lives as individuals, not a community called Dwellers.”
A
sudden twist of negative energy seized them, spinning their pods up over
end. Jaybo’s
tether held fast to her own pod, but Keesha felt them
being sucked backward into some vast vortex, and she realized they were
entering a wormhole.
One
of the memrix mind-bits she had received from Miklo played: Photon beamers. Now!
Keesha fired the reverse trigger and immediately the
negative energy that surrounded them was sucked into the beamer. All calmed.
In the vidiceptor, the child appeared to be
fine. Even so, she telemented,
“Are you all right, Jaybo?”
“Yes, Mama. I liked
it. It was fun.”
Of course. Any
two-year-old would think it was fun.
A
second later, Keesha felt them being pulled again,
but gently this time. And in the far
distance, she saw a narrow border of jewel-webbed stars. Apparently they went through the wormhole and
emerged on the other side. She checked
the control panel. All life support was
normal - - oxygen, temperature, memrix access. But in her audiceptors,
a white hiss rustled. “Can you hear me, Jaybo?” she asked. “Speak
aloud, please.”
“Yes,
Mama, I can hear you.
On
the intercom, she heard his voice clearly, above the hiss. What was causing it? Keesha was puzzled
by the sound, and then she became aware of its origin. In the void all around them, a ribbon of time
hung like torn silk, shredded at the ends.
The white hiss was caused by their pods sliding through the threads of
time. Each thread was all colors,
combined into one shimmering translucence.
Joy
trembled across her memrix. She was seeing time! It had its own dimension! As Miklo had
believed, it was a true entity, not some invisible unreality that was only the
product of clocks and chronometers.
“Oh,
Miklo,” she whispered. “If only you could see it! It is real, as you believed. And it’s beautiful.”
A
sudden whirlwind of madness clawed at their transpods,
and they were whipped into the vortex again, swirling over and over, around and
around. The winds of space had swept
them into another wormhole. Keesha fired the reverse trigger of her photon beamers and the negative
energy was absorbed.
Within
nanoseconds, their pods righted and floated free. Keesha saw the same
view of the star-laden sky. Had they emerged from the first wormhole again, or a different one? When she heard the white hiss rustle against her audiceptors exactly as before, her heart chilled. They had encountered circularity.
* * *
Keesha upmented all the mind-bits that Miklo
had implanted in her memrix. She went over each particle of information,
frantically searching for a clue on how to reverse circularity.
“I’m
sleepy, Mama.” Jaybo’s
voice startled her out of her rement.
“Close
your eyes and put your head back on your sleep pad,” she said. “I’ll play your sleep music for you.” In the vidiceptor
she watched the child lie back.
She
switched on an auditape of soft child pieces, but
even as the music played, their transpods spun again,
back into the wormhole. This time, when
they emerged, she upmented each mind-bit as quickly
as possible, using flash thought to view all information simultaneously. One phrase pulsed through her upment: Zero point energy.
She crossmented the information particles and
discovered that at zero point energy a wormhole implodes and space-time
collapses, expelling a parallel world. A
mind-bit told her each parallel universe exists by the difference of one photon. She had to reach a parallel world. But how? She had to try. How many times would circularity toss them
through the same routine, never allowing them to move forward or backward? How many parallel worlds had opened and
closed while they swept past?
From
her memrix, Keesha remented: to move forward, add one photon. To go backward, one less. Convergence produces zero point energy. She knew she had to use the photon beamers,
and it had to be synchronous - - the reverse trigger and the intake lever had
to be fired at exactly the same nanosecond.
“Miklo,” she whispered.
“What if I fail to be accurate?”
There was no time left to doubt herself. She glanced at the vidiceptor
to make sure Jaybo was asleep, then
placed the trigger finger of each hand on a beamer. When the negative energy seized them, she
fired.
* *
*
It
seemed as if nothing happened. Then
gradually, through her faceplate, she watched quantum foam bubbling all around
her, millions of tons of it, filling every iota of space. And yet - - it wasn’t touching her pod, or Jaybo’ s. They floated freely, just outside of
time. They were free! Keesha set the
photon beamers on low, and their pods powered them away from the darkness, into
the golden light of dawn.
Below,
a
With
hope in her heart, she set the controls to soft-land, and put the pods down on
a green space. As soon as she touched
down, her pod was surrounded by four Dwin. Keesha removed her
faceplate, stepped out, and spoke in the old way, with her voice. “ Hello. I am Keesha. My son and I need food and shelter.”
A
male Dwin stepped forward. “Your son? You have no son. No one is with you. You are alone.”
Her
heart thumped wildly as she looked around.
There was no other transpod, no tether. Panic flooded over her. “Jaybo!” she
screamed. “Jaybo,
where are you?” Running about, she
scanned the landscape, looked in her pod vidiceptor, continued screaming Jaybo’s
name. At the Dwin
she shouted, “Where is he? What have you
done with him?”
“She
is mad. Unhinged,” the Dwin buzzed. “Remove
her to the Halcyon Space.”
“No!”
Keesha cried as they bombarded her with memrix distortions.
She fumbled blindly at her pod for the photon beamers, but against her
fingers felt only empty air.
* *
*
She
awoke in a silent, windowless room. A
water tube was attached to the wall beside her bed. She seized it, greedily drinking a large
amount. It cooled her throat. On the table beside her, she saw a tray of
apples, with a knife for peeling and cutting.
She picked out a fruit, cut it in slices. The patterns of her memrix
seemed confused, twisted. She ate very
slowly, rementing that she had not had food for a
long time.
Images
scalloped the edges of her memrix. A small child was playing in a green
space. “Jaybo?” Keesha murmured.
“Was
that your son’s name?” asked a female Dwin who sat
nearby.
Keesha wrinkled her brow. She hadn’t noticed anyone in the room till
now. “Who are you?” she asked.
“I
am Zimora,” the figure replied. Keesha knew it was
a female by the topaz jewel that dangled from her chin. Her flaxen boy-bob hair and round body were
exactly like all other Dwin.
“Are
you real?” Keesha asked. “Or a holoimage?”
“I
am Zimora,” the female repeated, extending her hand
for Keesha to touch.
It felt soft and doughy.
Keesha’s memrix spun with
images of herself and someone named Miklo. They made love, lived in a domiorb, celebrated the birth of a child. “Jaybo?” she
murmured again.
“He
cannot hear you,” Zimora said. “He is in our world now, learning to become a
Dwin.” Her
eyes glinted with fiery arrogance.
“Why
have you taken him from me?” Keesha asked, her
sadness overlapping her memrix patterns. “He has less than two years of memrix,” she said, from another time long ago.
“We
are teaching him,” Zimora said, starting to fade.
“Don’t
go,” Keesha cried.
“I don’t want to be alone.”
Zimora vanished, swept backward through a rift in the
threads of time.
Keesha’s memrix bumped along a
dark narrow passage, while tendrils of heat and ice hummed and whispered at her
from the past. The shapes in her memrix coalesced into shimmering echoes as she heard the familiar
white hiss of the threads of time opening and closing around her. Then she knew it was all an illusion - - Zimora wasn’ t real, this room wasn’t real. She was somewhere that had no other side, a
dimension flat and pale. She focused all
her rements on the shadows in her memrix.
Either
the Dwin had drugged her - - the water and the apple?
- - or, she had been thrust into this otherwhen by a
distortion of the space-time continuum that was caused by a fault in her photon
beamers, Perhaps she could undo it all by going back into reverse time. If she could get back to her pod, perhaps she
could reprogram the control rods. “Zimora?” she called.
“I know you are still here.”
“Yes. I am sitting near you.”
“I
know you’re not real. You’re part of the
distortion. But I need you to become
real again, so that I can reverse to the moment before I landed.”
“Why?”
“So
that I can test my memrix, ”Keesha made up quickly.
“As
you wish,” Zimora said, unfading.
A
shallow mist enclosed the space around them.
Keesha said, “Sit still, Zimora. I’m going into Delta, using your topaz jewel
as my prism.”
The
female Dwin shrugged.
“Do what you want. You’ll never
escape from here. We’re angry at you for
trying to leave. Dwellers are not permitted
to leave through the holes in the sky.
The penalty is death.”
“Then
they did kill Miklo,” Keesha
murmured “But
I’m still alive, and I intend to stay that way.
And to find Jaybo.” She focused on the topaz jewel that dangled
from Zimora’ s chin, and as she blotted out everything else in her memrix, the prism began to revolve. Keesha entered the
Delta wave and slipped backward in time.
* * *
Thousands
of memrix patterns assaulted her senses. She smelled hatred, ugly with the stench of
rotted maggots, and saw it loom before her in layered shapes of the Dwin, their doughy bodies gathering round her to shut off
her air. Almost smothering, she pushed against the
puddles of their flesh. They suddenly
became all around red, hard as apples, the thick stems clawing at her throat
like talons.
“Get
away from me!” she screamed.
Their
fat, rolling bodies smashed into her, leaving huge bruises on her arms. They buzzed, “You are a traitor! Your husband plotted against us!”
Anger
seethed within Keesha’s bones and she wanted to fight
them barehanded. She remented that her warrior parents had fought them and lost. And they had destroyed Miklo
for almost escaping. “I will not be a
prisoner!” she
shouted. “You abolished us into the
world of memrix and took over the Realworld,
but don’t think I’ll accept that. I will
once again be free!”
As
the Dwin-apples barreled toward her again, she seized
the knife. With it she lashed out,
ripping their skins, leaving red whorls of blood everywhere.
Why
was she in battle in her memrix? She had never fought the Dwin. And then realized: she had killed them, over
and over, in her imagination - - for stealing her identity, her husband, now
her child. Her memrix
included not only life’s real events, but everything she ever wished, thought,
imagined, or visualized.
Keesha looked down at herself and saw she was wearing
the armor of a warrior. Her travel tunic
was covered by the frosted breastplate and body shield of a Belleterre
woman of the fifteenth century, when the Dwin first
landed on their planet to start the long war.
The bloodied knife in her hand had become a sword, and she stood facing Zimora, leader of Dwinworld.
* *
*
The
battlefield reeked with the odor of long-dead warriors. Zimora had shapeshifted into a lithe, slim beauty, who thrust out at Keesha with her sword.
Their
weapons clanged as Keesha evaded the strike. She was amazed at her own skill. It had been passed down to her from a
generation eons ago, long before battles were fought with firepower, then laser
beams, and now thought waves.
The
female Dwin smiled.
“You have come back from many centuries not yet created, Dweller. Do you think you can defeat me now, as you
have not in the future?” Behind her,
the landscape kept drifting from day to night, sun to moonlight, from mountains
to forests, as myriad worlds superimposed themselves over each other while time
danced.
Their
swords rang out with a rush of futile blows.
“Why have you done this to my memrix?” Keesha telemented to the Dwin.
Zimora lunged again with her weapon but Keesha swiveled aside with agile grace to safety. Zimora said, “You
caused this yourself, Dweller. It is
against the laws of nature to create a paradox in the stream of time You went outside
the holes in the sky, where there is no other side.”
Behind
them, thousands of other Dwin sprang up out of the
earth, the males shapeshifting
into leathery, muscular swordsmen, the females into lean, beautiful
warriors.
Keesha’s heart cringed.
She was done for. She could not
fend off this multitude; they would slay her before she could even raise her
weapon. But they did not attack
her. They battled phantoms of the past,
unseen forces that slashed and sliced the Dwin,
sending gouts of blood flying into the fetid air.
Her
weapon poised but not in strike mode, Zimora telemented, “This is what we endured, Dweller - - this carnage. See it.
Smell it. Hear the rush of blood
like a river that swells and overflows its banks. Our Realworld was
destroyed. But we did not despair. From our eidetic memory we plucked the
makings of a new Dwinworld. We conquered planet after planet with memrix patterns that we fashioned from the mind bits of
their dwellers."
Her
nerves tingled as Keesha listened, her sword ready if
needed. Now she knew that the Dwin had stolen the minds of many races of dwellers. Each victory empowered their mental abilities
and reenergized them to go farther.
Zimora continued, “We evolved into shapechangers
and telepaths. We separated reality from
conscious knowledge and created memrix patterns that
were beneficial to the community. But
you, a common Belleterre female, dared to defy our
boundaries, to go outside the holes in the sky, beyond time itself.”
“Only to save my son!” Keesha telemented. “I had no choice. I had to seek a parallel world that would
provide us with the nourishment you no longer supplied.”
“Fool!”
Zimora shouted aloud.
“We were at war. We were under memrix attack by the mind stealers from the galaxy of six
black moons. We fought with our mind
bits not only to protect Dwinworld, but the Dwellers
as well.”
Keesha swallowed hard, tasting again the water and
apple. “Why didn’t you make this known
to me on the wavenet?”
“We
did. But it fell on the dead ears of
your holoimages.
We gained victory and resumed our normal schedule of the Productivity
Era. All the Dwellers are now sharing in
the new surrounds, well and happy in their own private domiorbs. But you had already left in your transpod, beyond our reach.”
“Where
is my son?” Keesha demanded. “Is he all right?”
Zimora glared at her, her eyes like two fiery slits in
a chasm of darkness. “Find out for
yourself, Dweller. Go look for him in
the holes in the sky.”
Zimora raised her weapon, and before Keesha could prepare a stand, the sword skimmed along the
side of her head. She felt the rush of
air, then pain, then saw the blood dripping from the strands of her hair. Zimora’ s blow had sliced off Keesha’s
right ear, and with it, the crystal granule behind it.
* *
*
For
a moment, Keesha floated in Neverspace,
her hand soaked with the blood of her wound.
She heard the hiss of the time-threads and saw daylight beyond them.
Her
memrix slid into focus and she remented
all the events since she landed her transpod and was
confronted by the Dwin. The place where Zimora
had severed her ear was painful, but the bleeding was slackening. Keesha reached down
and tore off a piece of her tunic, pressed it to her soggy wound.
She
walked along a street that was vaguely familiar. Trees lined the walkway, and a green play
space surrounded each domiorb. The sky was blue, blended with streaks of
golden sunshine. She heard the chirping
of birds and smelled the fragrance of flowers.
Where was she? Her memrix could find no answer.
Weak
and faint, Keesha decided to seek help. She felt drawn to the nearest domiorb, crossed the green space and went to the door. A young man of about twenty-two answered her
buzz. “Yes?” Something about him seemed very
familiar. Did she know him?
Keesha tried to smile.
“I need help,” she said.
“Yes,
I see you’re bleeding,” the young man said.
“Come inside.” He helped her in,
and she immediately recognized her own domiorb. How could she be home? And who had lived here since she was
gone? The young man called out, “Mother,
would you come here, please? This young
woman needs medical attention.”
A
middle-aged female came from another room.
“This is my mother,” the young man said.
“Her name is Keesha. My name is Jaybo. Please sit down.”
Keesha stared at their faces. She was looking at herself and her son,
twenty years into the future. “This
can’t be!” she whispered. “It’s impossible!”
Jaybo took her arm and led her to a chair. His mother brought a laser cloth and peeled
away the wet piece of tunic. “That’s a
nasty wound,” the older Keesha said, cleansing it
with the laser cloth. “
But it will heal quickly now.”
She spread a thin film of repairing gel on the place where Keesha’s ear had been cut away, and the pain vanished.
“Thank
you,” Keesha whispered. “Don’t you recognize who I am?”
The
older Keesha smiled, shaking her head as she placed
her medical supplies back in the wall slot.
“No. Are you hungry? There is food and drink, if you wish.”
“But
I am you!” Keesha cried out. “And you are me. Jaybo is my son,
grown up.”
The
mother of the future and her son cast puzzled glances at each other. “The wound may have affected her mind,” Jaybo said softly.
“She is having delusions.”
“What
year is this?” Keesha asked.
“We
do not keep track of years here,” Jaybo replied. “Our dimension lies beyond the calculation of
time.”
Keesha took a deep breath and began again. “ My name is Keesha, and I am twenty-four years old. In the year twenty-seven twenty-six, my son Jaybo was two years old.
We lived here in this domiorb, and were under
the governing rule of the Dwin.” She looked from one to the other and saw the
lack of understanding on their faces.
Jaybo said, “I know nothing of Dwin. I grew up here, in Free Community, and I’m a
scientist. I chart space distortions,
fusion curves, and split flows for the aerotravelers.”
Keesha kept shaking her head. “But that’s in the future. I’m from the past.”
“We
do not think of it as past,” Jaybo told her. “All time is simultaneous. It forms the Nowtime
stream, at zero point energy.”
Keesha vaguely recalled that phrase. “I came through the time threads,” she said,
almost to herself. “Somehow I have
landed in the parallel world of a different time.”
“Would
you like some hot tea?” Jaybo’s mother asked.
Keesha nodded and accepted the cup the older Keesha handed her.
“Thank you. Do you understand
that I’m from the past and you’re from the future, and we are each living
different parts of the same life?”
Jaybo sighed. He suddenly
looked very much like Miklo, and Keesha’s
heart tumbled with emotion. “I’ve
already explained that past and future are not separate. Time is not linear, but infinite.”
“Perhaps
that is true for you, here,” Keesha said, sipping her
tea. It was hot and had a delightful
flavor that tingled the inside of her cheeks. “But I’m from another place. I must find my son who was two years old
when I left. My life will be empty
without him. I need to return to the
past and my small son. I don’t know
where they are keeping him. I must go
back through the threads of time to the proper year.” She tried to get up, felt dizzy.
Jaybo put a steadying hand on her arm. “Rest a while, until you are feeling
stronger. Then we will talk again.”
Keesha nodded and wondered if it wouldn’t be easier to
stay here, with Jaybo grown up. But almost immediately she knew it wasn’ t
right and rejected the idea. These two
belonged to another world, had lives of their own. No, she must go back to her own time.
Jaybo gently placed a quilt over her knees and pressed a wall
code that shut out the sunlight. The
room darkened with a thick silence. Keesha closed her eyes and slept.
* * *
Someone
was shaking her. When Keesha opened her eyes, she saw starshine
through the obwindow.
It was no doubt very late. She
looked up into the face of the older Keesha.
“I’ve
brought food for you to eat before you go,” the older woman whispered. “Don’t make any noise. I don’t want top wake Jaybo.” She placed the tray on the table while Keesha sat up.
“After you eat, I want you to leave.
The old transpod is in the hindyard, still usable, with
the child pod attached. Here we use
jetpacks so it has stood idle, but I checked the photon beamers. They have held their charge. They will power you far.”
Keesha tasted the food. It was familiar, like something she had
prepared herself.
The
older Keesha sat close. “I know who you are,” she whispered. “I knew immediately, but said nothing because
I was afraid it would upset things.”
Keesha swallowed.
“What do you mean?”
“With Jaybo. He was only two years old and doesn’t
remember. We landed here safely and
began our new life, away from the Dwin and Zimora. This
community accepted us, made us welcome.
You must find a like place for yourself and the child.”
Keesha frowned.
“But first I must return to Dwinworld to look
for him.”
“You
will find a way through the holes in the sky.”
Keesha finished her food and stood. “It was very good. Thank you.”
She studied the older woman’s face.
“May I see?” she asked.
The
older woman nodded, lifted her hair away from the side of her head. A film of thin skin had long ago grown over
the ear wound.
“Are
there many of us?” Keesha asked.
The
other Keesha shrugged. “I don’t know. Perhaps hundreds. Perhaps thousands. Each dimension has its own frequency, its own
realtime, all living parallel lives in different places
within the time threads, one photon apart from each other.”
Keesha nodded.
The two women embraced quickly, and the older Keesha
went to the obwindow to watch the younger’s
departure. “Godspeed,” she said.
Keesha fastened herself into the transpod,
checked the child pod, set the controls, and fired the photon beamers.
Within
nanoseconds, she was sliding against a froth of darkness, the light beam from
her helmet etching a path before her.
Endless shadows danced along the perimeter of her vision, and suddenly
her memrix overflowed with visions and rements.
Her
memrix had been almost dormant while she was in the
last dimension, but now it sprang to life.
Keesha focused on navigating the way through
the holes in the sky back to Dwinworld.
She
was suddenly vaulted end over end, sucked into a vortex of negative
energy. The old transpod
held up well, protecting her from rads and interspace debris.
She fired her reverse trigger and all calmed. Her pod righted, and she found herself gliding through the
faint hiss of the time threads, back into the past. A streak of pink in the east told her that a
sunburst of dawn was bleeding through the dark.
She powered toward it and navigated homeward.
* * *
She landed in the green space surrounding
Council House. As she stepped from her transpod, she noticed the neighborhood domiorbs
were no longer free-floating, but were stationary on their own green
space. Keesha
saw two Dwin walking from Council House.
“I
need information,” she began. “Can you
tell me - - “
“The
meeting is over,” the Dwin telemented. “The new Productivity Era is a great
success.”
“No,
you don’t understand,” Keesha said. “What year is this?”
“Twenty-seven twenty-six,” the Dwin
telemented.
“Oh,
thank you, Lord,” Keesha said to herself. Then she asked, “Do you know where Zimora is?”
“She
lives there.” They pointed to a nearby
dwelling. It was Keesha’s
own domiorb.
* * *
She
upmented the entrance code and went inside. Everything was the same as when she
left. The holoimages
of Jaybo and herself had been deactivated and stood
immobile against the wall. “Jaybo?” Keesha
called.
“He’s not here,” Zimora telemented from the sleep room. When Keesha went
in, she found the leader of the Dwin lying on the
sleep mat, her attention focused on the prism in the ceiling.
“Where
is my son?” Keesha demanded. “What have you done with him?”
“He
is in the learning place. He is being
taught the glorious history of the Dwin, including
all our victories.”
“Where
is that place? I want him returned to me
now!”
Zimora pointed upward.
“That prism takes you to Farspace where you
communicate with those gone past. That
is not in our technology, and when you're there, you are beyond our control. That is not acceptable, and I will not allow
it to continue. First, I must learn how
it is done." She glared at Keesha. “You will
now show me.”
“I’ll show you nothing,” Keesha telemented. “I want
my son returned to me. Now!”
Zimora rolled her short, round body to a sitting
position. “Dweller, I command you to
give me the upment codes that you use to converse
with spirits. It is the only thing
missing in our paradroid technology, and I must have
it!”
“There
are no codes,” Keesha said. “It is not a technology. It is a meditation, a mental bending of the
brainwave patterns to allow supernatural visions to enter the mind.”
“You
lie!” Zimora telemented. “Nothing can enter the memrix
unless it is implanted through our crystal granule.”
Keesha stared at the Dwin
leader. “You sliced off my granule, yet
my memrix seems to be functioning very well.”
Zimora stared back, but said nothing.
Keesha continued, “Obviously, the human brain is able
to originate thought, process ideas, and retain memories, all without your
so-called Productivity Era.”
“Careful,
Dweller,” Zimora snarled. “Or do you wish to return to the battlefield
with me?”
“Without
the granule, you don’t control my memrix any more, Zimora. You can’t
send me anywhere.”
The
Dwin leader paced a few short, quick steps. “Ah - - but I have something you want,
Dweller. I know where your son is. Do you?”
Keesha’s anger flared.
“You have no right to keep him from me.”
Zimora placed her hands on her round hips. “When you show me how to enter the realm of
those gone past, I may consider his return to you.”
Keesha had no idea if the Paradroid
mind was capable of deep meditation. But
she had to give it a try. “You agree to
return Jaybo to me if I teach you the meditation?”
she asked.
Zimora nodded.
“I agree.”
“Lie
down on the mat,” Keesha instructed.
Zimora rolled herself down. The topaz jewel in her chin slid to one side
of her face as she lay back. “Now what?”
she asked.
“Look
only at the prism. Blank everything else
from your mind. Concentrate, and breathe
deeply.”
Zimora did this but after a few seconds she shook her
head. “It is not working. There is more you are not telling me. You must come with me, so that I will know
you do not lie.”
Keesha lay down next to the Dwin
leader. “It takes time, Zimora. Focus on the
colors of the prism, and watch as it slowly turns. Go deep and give your mind over to the
turning colors.” Keesha
felt herself being drawn into the Delta wave.
Zimora remained silent for a short time, then said, “No, it isn’t working. All I see are rainbow hues.”
Her
voice faded and Keesha was deep into Delta. The holoimages of
both Dwin and Dwellers floated past. “Zimora, are you
with me?” Keesha telemented. “Have you entered Delta?”
There
was no reply. Many faces from the past
drifted through Keesha’s memrix,
then Miklo appeared. He said, “My dearest, the Dwin
spirits are visible to you but not to Zimora. Paradroids are not
able to visit beyond the curtain of darkness.
She does not see what you see, but only dreams, like a sleeping child.”
“Then
how can I convince her to give Jaybo back to me?”
“Keesha, think. When
did all this begin? You must reverse
time.”
“And
change what happened!” It was clear to
her now, that she would never be able to force Zimora
to free Jaybo, and the Dwin
leader would continue to make false promises.
She remented the other Keesha, who had found a way to safety and a new life in a
parallel world. She would do the
same. “I will leave you now, Miklo. I will find
that precise moment before I left, and return to it. Then Jaybo will be
with me”
He
smiled. “Goodbye,
dearest. I see success on your
path, but you must travel it alone without me to guide you. I have no power in your world any more.”
Keesha nodded.
“I know. I love you, Miklo. Goodbye”
She
blinked, and the room came into focus.
Beside her on the mat, Zimora slept on.
* * *
Keesha went back to Council House and found her transpod, with the child pod still attached. After she brought them home, in Miklo’ s
laboratory, she uploaded the original compuments. When she entered the scrip into the governing
sensor, small bursts of anti-matter exploded within the particle accelerator. As she began to compuload
them into the beamers, she felt time slip from her grasp, and a shimmering
froth washed over her. She floated
through a river of collapsed time, and within the fragments of her memrix, she saw the threads, heard the hiss. Shavings of the past fell about her, and a
newness broke free within her memrix.
“Jaybo?” she called.
“Yes,
Mama?” he replied, coming to her.
“You
must step inside this pod, for we are going on a journey.”
END
© 2005 by Vera Searles. The
short fiction of Vera Searles appeared recently in BEWILDERING STORIES,
UNSPOKEN DREAMS, EPITAPHS ANTHOLOGY, and NAKED SNAKE ONLINE.