The Slopes
of Shangri-la
by Christopher Bradley
Tzu
Lung had lost track of time. The peaks and plateaus of the Shotoragal Mountains
that separated Tsao Chao and Akivasha were endless, it seemed. He had no real place
to go, nor anything to do that couldn't be done as well there as in any other
place. The sun rose and set, the seasons passed, and if he concentrated on time
he could make sense of it. He didn't bother. He had books that took time to
understand and the will to understand them.
In
particular, there was an ancient copy of the central text of Davana Buddhism to
which Tzu Lung had been raised in monastery The Path of the Enlightened
Devils and the equally obscene The Brutal Kiss of the Corpse.
Neither
book was truly meant for humans. Neither book was written for humans. Tzu Lung
had not gotten them from humans. But he sought wisdom and understanding. In his
world, devils and the living dead were as real as the wind and earth. Any real
attempt at wisdom had to regard them as much as it regarded humans, or the yao,
or the naga.
Sometimes,
he realized he was insane. Sometimes, he was near death for months at a time.
The inhumanity of the ideas burned in him. The alien thoughts ate at his soul
and he had to summon all the powers of his will and body to combat a
degeneration that constantly sought to overwhelm him.
He was
twenty-two years old when he went into the mountains with his books.
Twenty-two! He moved with the hubris and arrogance of thoughtless youth. He
simply did not know. If he had been older, wiser, more experienced he would
have never locked himself amongst the snowy peaks, the ancient stands of trees,
the vast plateaus of the Shotoragal Mountains with those obscene, alien books.
But,
because he was not older and more experienced, because he had, still, some of
the strange and wild wisdom of youth, he succeeded because he did not
understand he was supposed to fail.
Tzu
Lung lost track of time. The wandered amongst the caves and ruins of ancient
civilizations that had once raised lofty towers on high peaks now all encrusted
with ice and choked with snow. He watched the mountains of the yao and their
smoky valleys where they lived and worked under the earth in places of little
interest to humans. He watched the trade caravans struggling through the Kian
Pass on their way to Selucia, Tsao Chao, Akivasha or the more distant lands to
the far west. The days passed to seasons passed to years that flitted by Tzu
Lung like a leaf trapped in the wind. He was heated by the ideas in his mind
that writhed like fires in a glass furnace. He was preparing to leave the
mountains and return to the world of men when he was sought out.
The
man who did the seeking was one of the rakshasa a term referring to the shape
changers of Akivasha of whom the tiger rakshasa were the kings. The rakshasa
came to Tzu Lung as a human, and as a human the rakshasa looked Akivashan,
roughly, with fierce dark eyes and a hawkish nose with a rough and cruel face.
In
thickly accented Tsao Chaoan, the rakshasa said, "Are you Tzu Lung?"
Tzu
Lung was standing in a pool of water under a high falls. The water was falling
from a hundred feet up and pounding his body. Tzu Lung came forward, nude, his
hair more wild than the beast-man, and said, "Yes."
"The
Rajah of Kakala wants to see you."
"If
I say no?"
The
rakshasa shrugged. "You're coming if you want to or not."
Tzu
Lung walked out of the pond. His skin was pale as alabaster. He was lean as a
sapling but muscles moved under his smooth skin. He was broad shouldered and
long limbed. He had big hands. He carefully put on what rags remained to him.
"Lead
on, then," Tzu Lung said.
"You're
supposed to have some books. You're supposed to bring them, too."
"No.
My books are safe."
"The
rajah was clear. You are to bring the books."
"No.
The books are safe."
The
rakshasa snarled. It wasn't a human noise. He said, "I'll tear you apart.
Give me one reason not to feast on your flesh, mortal." His skin was
already stretching as the change started to overtake him.
In a
blink, Tzu Lung was standing in front of the rakshasa, standing very close,
looking the rakshasa in the eyes. Tzu Lung said, "I'll give more than one
reason. You were sent to retrieve me and my books. If you kill me, you'll fail
at both, and your master who has many servants such as yourself will not be
pleased. I do not know this Rajah of Kakala, since he employs such as you, he
is unlikely to be a lenient man.
"Second,
and probably of more immediate importance to you, is that if you were to attack
me, I would destroy you. I would rip you limb from limb and leave you for
whatever lairs in these woods to eat out your eyes before you died. I . . .
find myself having to restrain myself from doing that right now, you see.
"Accept
the failure of the books. I'll see to your rajah."
Tzu
Lung took a step back. The rakshasa growled, but was fully human in shape.
"Come with me. If you can keep up." The man started to run as speeds
that would put a human to shame.
Tzu Lung
wasn't precisely human anymore.
In those days, a rajah was any petty warlord who could hold a piece of land.
They fought incessantly, and Akivasha was a shifting maze of alliances,
treacheries and wars. Kakala was not a large place. It was a few valleys along
the Kian Pass, settled by farmers who grew crops during the short and intense
growing season and hunted at other times for meat and furs. Caravans moving
north with goods from Akivasha and coming south with goods from Selucia and
Tsao Chao made the small feudatory nestled in the rugged mountains an oddly
cosmopolitan place.
The
fortress of the rajah was settled on a steep and jagged hill. It was weathered
with years but in excellent condition. It commanded the Kakala Valley that was
a necessary part of the Kian Pass. From the fortress, not a single donkey would
make it north or south save by the leave of the master of the fortress the
Rajah of Kakala.
In Tzu
Lung's hermitage, he had not heard of the Rajah of Kakala who had lived in his
fortress for centuries. But the stamp of fear was on the little protectorate:
the Rajah of Kakala was one of the Deathless called in the Akivashan tongue kaulitari
who by magic had become ageless and of great power at the expense of his
humanity. He levied a blood tax on his subjects and they paid. Sometimes in
gold, sometimes in blood, but they always paid.
Tzu
Lung and the rakshasa climbed the switchback trail to the fortress. They passed
over a retractable bridge and through the stone walls into the bailey of the
fortress. Tzu Lung was passed from the rakshasa to human servants who took him
an apartment as luxurious as anything in the world, done in a style equally
Tsao Chaoan and Akivashan. He bathed in hot water. A barber shaved his matted
hair until Tzu Lung was bald as a monk, and shaved his face, too. Tzu Lung
looked twenty, again. He was given clothes of silk in an Akivashan style
flowing silk tunic with a vest over it, a sash for his waist, a turban of blue
silk, loose pants and silk slippers. As he was nominally a Buddhist, Tzu Lung
was served the finest vegetarian dishes in the Akivashan style using all the
exotic spices of that land served with lentils, beans and rice.
So he
was entertained until the sun set behind the bulk of the mountains, casting the
valley into shadow, even though the sky shone blue.
The
Rajah of Kakala sent for Tzu Lung.
The
main hall of the fortress had thick silk carpets from Selucia and Akivashan
tapestries hanging from the walls in glittering greens and gold showing scenes
from Akivashan mythology. The pillars were in the style of Tsao Chao, as was
the roof, itself. There was no unified architectural theme whatever worked for
that time and place was used but everything had a restrained style.
The
Rajah of Kakala looked neither young nor old. Time was slipping him by. He was
not handsome he was intense. He was tending towards the tall. His skin was the
color of bronze but almost seemed as if a thin, translucent layer of
mother-of-pearl had been laid atop it. He was dressed elegantly as an Akivashan
nobleman, his wardrobe glittering with jewels and pearls. He preferred black
and red in his dress. He sat on a large, wide throne of beautiful hardwood
heavily carved with motifs out of mythology with a focus on the ghastly.
The
court itself was a study in low-key terror. Placed in the shadows were the
kaulitari's servitors, called ghulam the bodies of humans who were dead kept
alive through alchemy and surgical skill. After time, they were a patchwork of
parts as wear and injury through the centuries took its toll on their preserved
flesh. The lore of the kaulitari said that only those guilty of the gravest
crimes would become such ghulams because in each piece of meat was a touch of
the dead man's soul, and the soul would not be laid to rest for whatever fate
awaited until all the pieces were no longer . . . used. It was a prison for
souls for whom the kaulitari deemed no mortal punishment sufficient. The more
skilled of the kaulitari alchemist-surgeons would create monsters of flesh, each
body housing several souls suffering their agonies together and eternally. Tzu
Lung could see them in the shadows.
In the
foreground were the other servants of the kaulitari Rajah of Kakala. There were
the rakshasa, all of them bestial save one woman of superhuman beauty that
watched Tzu Lung with a tiger's eyes filled with ancient magic, dressed as an
Akivashan queen. There were the human courtiers some with minds worn thin and
stretched tight because of their ancient master's ways, others without much
soul at all who did not mind the ghulams and rakshasa . . . not to mention the
more hidden things lurking in the darkened halls of the fortress.
Tzu
Lung bowed in a perfunctory fashion. A servant presented him to the lord of the
hall.
The
rajah said, "I have been told you refused to bring the books you
possess."
"You
were told correctly, majesty," Tzu Lung said.
"Certainly
you realize they do not belong to you. That they were not meant for you."
"They
belonged to no one when I found them. They were in a building long abandoned by
humans and yao, in a land without naga or rakshasa. At one time, perhaps, the
works belonged to the you-yo-ren, but that was ages ago."
"And
before the you-yo-ren?"
"An
academic question, at best, majesty."
The
rajah rose and the whole room tensed. He walked down the throne, his step light
and graceful, and the rajah took Tzu Lung by the elbow and guided him towards a
balcony reached by an arch through the wall. The balcony was narrow and long,
on the outer wall of the fortress. It was a steep drop straight down, more than
five hundred feet to the talus slope below the hill. The sun was hidden by the
bulk of the mountains, but it was not yet true dark the clouds were lit purple
and orange.
The
rajah looked at the clouds. He looked at Tzu Lung.
"The
books are not meant for mortals," the rajah said. "Surely you know
this with even a glancing look."
"Majesty,"
Tzu Lung said back, "there is no such thing as wisdom unfit for
anyone."
"Then
you have not read the books?"
"I
have spent years meditating on them."
A
pause. The rajah fixed his dark eyes on Tzu Lung in study. "You have not
lost your mind or soul. I have trouble accepting this, Tzu Lung."
"It
is a fact. You do not have to accept it, majesty."
"You're
arrogant."
"Is
it arrogance to admit the truth?"
"If
you're saying the truth, you have done what no mortal has managed. And not just
once, but at least twice. I know the books you have."
"How
did you come by this information?"
"The
kaulitari, generally, possess great interest in such works. They lead to
wickedness, Tzu Lung."
"The
sort of wickedness that enables the kaulitari to survive."
A look
of anger passed over the rajah's face. "You taunt me. The kaulitari
possess honor, Tzu Lung. We only . . . ."
"Feed
on. Eat. Devour."
"Yes.
We only devour those mortals who are wicked."
"By
your definition of wickedness."
"By
any definition of wickedness. You might disagree that it is just and fair for
us to devour them, but I would like to see you, even with your Buddhist
training, try to say that our prey is not amongst the wicked."
Tzu
Lung looked out over the darkened valley. The shadows held no secrets from him,
now, though the world was painted in blues, black, silver and gray to his eyes.
He said, looking out, "I believe you can see into the hearts of
mortals."
"Tzu
Lung, did you truly read and meditate upon The Brutal Kiss of the Corpse?"
"Yes.
It almost killed me."
"Almost!"
the rajah said, thumping the stone railing with his fist. "I have trouble
believing you studied the book. It has existed for eons, Tzu Lung. Do you know
its history?"
"No,
only myths."
"The
kaulitari have longer memories than humans. It started ten thousand years ago,
give or take a few centuries. The greatest of our number, Me-Lha, wrote The
Brutal Kiss of the Corpse to find a way to . . . create more of our number
without our, ah, limitations. The mystics of our kind believe his ideas are
true, but that no mortal has been of the proper combination of physical and
spiritual fortitude to survive the study both sane and alive. You understand my
reservations about believing your studies."
"Majesty,"
Tzu Lung said, turning to the kaulitari, "proving anything to you I feel
to be completely irrelevant. It doesn't matter, not to me, whether you believe
me or not."
"Ah,
Tzu Lung," the rajah said, his teeth grit against welling anger, "but
it matters to the kaulitari if you are telling the truth. If what you say is
true, you are the culmination of Me-Lha's work. I'm sure, now, you understand
why I will press this to the ends of the earth."
Tzu
Lung considered. He considered the formidable kaulitari in front of him, the
rakshasa behind him and the drop to the stones below. He said, "Tell me,
rajah, what is it that you require of me?"
"You
will be taken to Shangri-la and we will endeavor to awaken Me-Lha."
"And
if I refuse?"
The
rajah smiled and his teeth seemed razor blades. He said, "If not, then I
must compel you. You are not my master, Tzu Lung. There would be futility and
pain if you tested my power."
Though
Tzu Lung resisted with all his strength, the rajah was right. There was only
futility and pain. In the end, Tzu Lung submitted to the will of the kaulitari.
The Rajah of Kakala made the journey in a sarcophagus of carved basalt that
was, itself, the size of a large wagon. Two elephants pulled it and its wheels
were taller than any man. With the Rajah of Kakala were over a score of the
rakshasa, most of them wearing the skins of wolves and wolfmen their leader was
with them, and she had her own wagon pulled by a team of six horses.
Additionally, there were over a century of mortal troops and another forty
servants and supply men. Lastly, there were thirty slaves all criminals
condemned to die. Further, where they traveled the clouds hung low and heavy in
the sky so that day was nearly as dark as night. In the center of this was Tzu
Lung.
The
troop traveled away from the Kian Pass. The way was known to the rajah, but the
way was slow going even in summertime.
The
views were breathtaking and glorious. Tzu Lung saw ravines into which rivers
poured and seemed to have no bottom, but only a silvery mist to eternity. He
saw in the stormclouds, the crackling of the dragons of the air fighting with
claw and thunder and lightning. He saw endless vales of trees with snowy
mountains rearing overhead.
Slowly,
the slaves dwindled in number.
Summer
stretched late. The nights were frosty and the days were starting to carry some
of the bitterness of cold that hinted at the very early winters at these
altitudes.
They
came to a permanent, though empty, fort. It was old and sat before a narrow
ravine that leads between massive cliffs. At this height, there was already a
light frosting of snow on the ground. The relief of the soldiers was palpable.
By this time, Tzu Lung knew that the humans would stay in the fort during
winter while Tzu Lung, the rajah and the rakshasa would go ahead through the
narrow pass.
The
great sarcophagus was fitted to be carried by the rakshasa no beast of burden
could be made to enter the pass, or there was no compulsion known. In the half
beast form, then, the rakshasa lifted the sarcophagus and moved into the
ravine. Tzu Lung traveled with the rakshasa queen, Dahanshri. They had traveled
together for seventy days and during that time she had not seen fit to speak to
him but he often caught her watching him with a tiger's intensity.
The
passage was hard for the rakshasa under their burden of stone; the ravine climbed
upwards at a steep slope. Dahanshri still said nothing to Tzu Lung. Tzu Lung
had been practicing silence for years and kept to his own thoughts.
It was
two days to the top of the passage that lead to a plateau. In the center of the
plateau was a mountain higher whose peaks were shrouded in the clouds.
Dahanshri
said, "Behold Mount Shangri-la. We will soon see how mortal you are."
That night the rajah came from his resting place and cast up his hands. He drew
in power and spoke it, his words carrying to the far mountain. He returned to
his rest. Within hours there were two score of the ghulams these were monstrous
things, sculpted from the flesh of humans into giants over nine feet tall, but
bent and twisted, almost like apes, with hideous faces made terrible by their
resemblance to human beings.
They
took up the sarcophagus. There was a palanquin for Dahanshri and Tzu Lung. The
other rakshasa took on their wolf skins and loped after.
The
ghulams were tireless. What could have been a travel of three or four days, and
a brutal climb up the mountain, was done in perhaps sixteen hours.
Thus
it was that Tzu Lung came to Shangri-la.
The city, itself, was fascinating. Because of the unique inhabitants of the
place, it was kept protected from the sun by thick, high banks of clouds. It
had been eons since the last beam of sunlight fell on any of the winding
streets and towers. The same terrible magic kept the peak warmer than it should
be as the cold air from the outside intruded, it created terrible storms that
often raged around the peak where wind and cold rain, squalls of ice and snow,
competed.
But
the city was surprisingly bright. Due to the lack of natural light, the people
who called the city home made their own light, so when it was relatively clear
save for the blankets of mist over everything, the city glittered like a
million tiny fires underwater, or seen through gauze.
Of
architecture, no mortal city could compare to the works that the tireless,
deathless hands had raised in Shangri-la. There were towers that defied the
terrible storms and domes under which whole villages could rest but it was
inside where everything was most dramatic, with color and light compensating
for the unrest of the weather. Terrace after terrace of magnificence reared
itself on the mountain's peak.
But it
was a city of the damned, for the damned, by the damned. Most of the
inhabitants were human in the same way the blades of wheat outnumber the
farmers. The dread kaulitari had their capital, of sorts, here. There was
nothing of law or order to be made; to satisfy the stringent demands of
kaulitari honor, the city had to be filled with criminals. Filled with their
foodstuffs. Their food. So the city was designed to promote wickedness upon
which the kaulitari could prey.
Worse,
the eldest of the kaulitari were all formidable demonologists. Their hellish
servants also roamed the streets.
The
city was caught in despair a never ending horror show of human and inhuman
corruption allowed to exist, to thrive, even encouraged to grow, to feed the
elders of the kaulitari.
Tzu
Lung admired the architecture, wondered at the storms, and loathed the reality
of the place. Yet, he saw its utility, how this place was the center of
kaulitari culture and politics down the ages. It was built to last.
Tzu Lung was brought to the pit. He was wearing, once more, the clothing of an
Akivashan gentleman. He had been told he was going to visit the Grand Council
of the Deathless perhaps they were there, in the stands. But Tzu Lung was in the
pit and when he turned around his guides had literally vanished he wondered if
they existed, at all.
The
ghulams came out of other doors and the lights glittered on the edge of the
pit, shining down a hard blue light. There was a grate twelve feet above Tzu
Lung, else he would have just leapt from the pit. Tzu Lung hardened his face
and threw off his long coat. He got in the stance of the Davana Buddhist's art,
the Jade Lion Fang, with a sudden shift of direction to one side and a step
forward, loose limbed and prepared for attack from any direction.
The
ghulams were nine feet tall, but hunched down so they were shorter than they
should have been. They were very broad in proportion to their height. Their
eyes were clusters of irises and pupils set into their deformed, elongated
heads and Tzu Lung wondered how many souls stared out from them. Such art had
been wrought on the ghulams that in many places they seemed covered with thick
scales, all over otherwise vital areas, but they were covered with a thick and
scraggly hair as if they were more ape than anything ever human. Their hands
were massive with knotted bone that could pound through a stone wall or crush a
human frame with a single blow.
They
had been unbound. The kaulitari had released the ghulams from their icy will
the ghulams were free to act as they chose after their decades or centuries of
undying torment.
Thus
it came to him: study of The Brutal Kiss of the Corpse had created the
techniques to make the ghulams but when Tzu Lung applied the philosophy to
himself, using meditation to create the internal alchemy required, he had not
lost his mind. He and the ghulams, though, were cousins, now.
By
instinct they circled around Tzu Lung in different directions. Tzu Lung feinted
left, shot right, under the ghulam's guard into a spinning side kick that
struck the ghulam near the groin.
The
effect was dramatic. Tzu Lung has shifted the powers of his ki (should he think
of it as prana in Akivasha?) and it rippled out of his body: the blow struck
not only body, but the flow and puddling of ki in the ghulam. The ghulam was
hurled back into one of the walls while the other rushed with a roar, striking
in a downward blow that would have crushed a horse to paste. But Tzu Lung
blurred as he sidestepped, bringing up his foot into an ax kick that struck,
and hopelessly shattered, the ghulam's wrist. Then he lashed out with a lion's
fang strike a focused burst of ki that turned his hand into a steel barb that
tore at the vital blood veins in the ghulam's throat. There was a burst of
blood and the ghulam fell down, writhing in its death throes.
Tzu
Lung turned to the first he had kicked its hipbone was broken, as Tzu Lung
planned. The creature was clawing pathetically towards Tzu Lung, who ignored
it.
There
was a wave of motion that Tzu Lung could not stop and he was in a different
place. It was a great and elaborate chamber done in a style closer to the
Mon-Khymer lands than either Akivasha or Tsao-Chao elaborate with gold and
statuary of warriors with heavy, curved swords. In a silk robe covered with
gold thread and glittering with jewels in ostentatious display was a lord of
the kaulitari who looked little more than a tall, gangly teenager and who
radiated power that crackled against Tzu Lung's mind. The Rajah of Kakala was
there, as well, dressed as normal, and the Dahanshri was at his side, looking
at Tzu Lung with a beautiful amused expression.
The
Rajah of Kakala said, "I present to you my maker, Thet-Say."
Human
servants rushed up to Tzu Lung from the shadows and started to take off his
bloody clothes with one hand while cleaning him with swift efficiency at the
same time. They had clearly done this before.
While
that happened, Thet-Say said, "Forgive me the deception, Tzu Lung, but I
find the best observations occur during times of stress, particularly
unexpected."
Bare
chested, stepping out of his pants while a servant wrapped a glorious robe of
green silk with dragons and tigers etched into it, Tzu Lung said, "Forgive
me, Master Thet-Say, if I say I've been under considerable pressure since the
Rajah of Kakala . . . ."
Thet-Say
laughed. "His name is Kakala. Calling him the rajah of himself is a
redundancy."
"Master
Kakala, then, who is a rajah of a place that is now called after him, has had
me under considerable stress for several months, now."
"You
wouldn't tell to look at you," Thet-Say said, circling around Tzu Lung,
who now wore the robe. The servants retreated as unobtrusively as they had
come. "You have studied the book, though, and others. The book of the
fiends, I saw that in you, and of course you have learned the Davana arts to a
level of unusual perfection. You no longer fight with just your body and mind
your soul has entered into it.
"You
have survived The Brutal Kiss of the Corpse. Not in ten thousand years
has a mortal been able to say that. Why you, Tzu Lung?"
Thet-Say
moved to a chair and sat. In a couch sat Kakala with the long, lithe body of
Dahanshri curled up against the rajah.
Tzu
Lung moved to address them all, but did not sit, despite there being room
enough. He said, "I have considered that. I think I didn't know to fail.
Now I know I can succeed. I don't think it needs to be anything other than that
but . . . you have said yourself that I didn't just study The Brutal Kiss of
the Corpse. There is another important element."
It was
Dahanshri who said, almost purring, "The Path of the Enlightened Devils.
He's talking about that. I knew, I always knew."
Thet-Say
looked over at Dahanshri and Tzu Lung felt the air crackle between them. Her
eyes narrowed to feline slits, then she looked away and turning up her nose.
But she had lost whatever contest there was between them.
Thet-Say
looked at Tzu Lung, his face turning benevolent. "Explain, please."
"I
think that . . . alone, either text would have destroyed me. But together . . .
as the negative imbalances grew in me, I could create positive imbalances a
could create a new balance at a higher level.
"I
don't think I am what you seek, however, because the internal alchemy to
contain both the wisdom of The Path of the Enlightened Devils and The
Brutal Kiss of the Corpse has changed me, certainly, I feel that but has
also each wisdom has created a change in the other. This is a necessity, of
course."
Thet-Say
said, "This was difficult for you?"
"Very
much so. I was often on the edge of death and madness."
"Why
did you continue?"
Tzu
Lung shrugged with one shoulder. "It was wisdom. It was something no one
else had, at least that I knew. It would make me special. Different. I was very
young when I started."
"I
have checked," Kakala said. "You repudiated your Buddhist
youth."
"I
did," Tzu Lung said with a nod of his head. "I had been my whole
life, almost, in the monastery. I was aware I owed the monks my existence and
education, but I felt I was a slave to the monastery. I wasn't there willingly.
So I left. At first I believed that after a time about I would want to return
to the monastery, but . . . ."
"That
hasn't happened," Kakala said.
"No.
I have found much in the way of wisdom in the world. Perhaps I am imperiling my
future incarnations but did not Buddha himself go out into the world to learn
before finding enlightenment?"
Thet-Say
said, coolly, "I would rather not discuss the Buddhas."
Tzu
Lung hesitated. Then he said, "It could be important as to why I
survived."
Dahanshri
had recovered, and said, smooth as silk, "It could be, yes, but the
kaulitari don't like talking about the Buddha because, in comparison, they are
nothing but living corpses kept alive by prana imbalances instead of the noble,
justice-bearing aristocrats they tell themselves they are.
"And,
no, Tzu Lung, none of the others who read The Brutal Kiss of the Corpse
were trained in Buddhist, or Taoist for that matter, techniques of meditation
and internal alchemy. Not in ten thousand years could they bring themselves to
give their cursed book to one of the people who might survive it, might see
what its doing to them and work to counterbalance the effects."
Thet-Say
said, "You should silence your pet, Kakala, before I do."
She
flowed to her feet and smirked. She said, "Kakala is my pet, if anything.
You have an interest in The Brutal Kiss of the Corpse and why Tzu Lung
survived it. I don't much care. But he also has a copy of The Path of the
Enlightened Devils and that certainly does. It was written for my
people."
Thet-Say
stood up, too, and then Kakala.
She
held Thet-Say's gaze, this time, and said, "This city is as much a place
of the rakshasa and mairya as the kaulitari. And The Path of the Enlightened
Devils is for us. And, unlike you, we do not balk at the study of Buddhism
are not the Davana Buddhists proof of this? Davana Buddhism should be our
Buddhism."
Thet-Say
said something in a language that was like the ancient forms of Akivashan, but
older than that. Dahanshri sniffed and replied in the same language. They
locked eyes, again, but this time Dahanshri was wearing a small smile.
Thet-Say
turned to Tzu Lung Thet-Say had tremendous savoir-faire, but Tzu Lung realized
that this time he had lost to the wilder Dahanshri. Thet-Say said, "I fear
we have aired a bit of our dirty laundry in your presence."
Tzu
Lung said, "It is nothing, Master Thet-Say."
The
servants came forward again. Thet-Say said, "We will speak again before we
attempt to awaken the Great Old One."
The
servants murmured that he should go with them. He went and was escorted back to
his apartments.
Tzu Lung was on a balcony that was currently to the leeward side of the storm that
raged on Shangri-la. His arms were in the sleeves of his gown, arms cross on
his chest, in a typically Tsao Chaoan gesture, and he stood with his back
ramrod straight. The city glowed an eerie mixing of pastel colors mostly green,
blue and purple as the light snow fell down. Lightning cracked the sky in
waves; the skies sounded at war.
He
smelled Dahanshri enter her perfume was lavender. She came up to stand next to
him. He noticed she was his own height.
She
said, "I didn't believe you had the book until the fight with the
ghulams." She stood very close to him, a little behind, very intimate, and
whispered in his ear. "The rakshasa are not the same as the kaulitari. We
are closer to the mairya."
"Unclean
spirits," Tzu Lung said.
"That
is a mortal distinction that has no meaning to those such as we are."
"I
am not as you."
"You
have The Path of the Enlightened Devils in you, Tzu Lung. You are a
Davana Buddhist. Your whole life has been steeped in the lore of mairya,
rakshasa and asura. You are as much one of us as a mortal can get."
"Am
I also like the kaulitari?" he said, feeling scared, though he would not
admit it. He was afraid of her femininity. That was an enemy one never learned
about in monasteries and can't learn about from books.
She
wrapped her arms around Tzu Lung's waist and pressed the lithe strength of her
figure against him. She whispered in his ear, "No. You are a man."
She pressed one hand against his belly, slipping it in his robe, going up to
his chest. "You have the body of a man, a body of strength in the way of a
man. I feel your prana, you ki, call it what you will. It crackles in
you." The lightning flashed as she spoke. "You are a man."
Tzu
Lung felt himself blushing, his ears hot, and he pulled himself away from her,
tightening his robe.
"The
Buddhists wanted to steal that from you. A good Buddhist is always
sexless," she said as he momentarily slipped out of her grasp. "So,
fundamentally, are the kaulitari. Because they always hunger, they seem to
possess something of a human passion, but that is a lie. They merely want blood
or meat. I prefer Hinduism, myself it allows one to be oneself or at least
Taoism, which says the same."
"I'm
thinking of letting you have the book so I can leave this place," he said,
standing apart from her while looking at her. He tried not to notice how female
she was she was right, after all. A good Buddhist is sexless. He told himself
he wasn't a Buddhist, at least not a monk, anymore.
"Oh,
were it up to me, that would be more than sufficient, Tzu Lung. But it isn't up
to me. The kaulitari want more than just a wayward copy of their book they want
what you have. They won't listen. They won't care that you survived because you
were what they cannot become. You will never leave Shangri-la, Tzu Lung,
because they consider you a step on their path rather than a divergence from
it."
Tzu
Lung considered this, looking out to the city of lights and lightning flashes
in cracks and roars. It made a certain sense and he conceded that she knew more
of the politics of Shangri-la than he knew.
He
said, "I didn't realize fiends had religion."
"Of
course we do, even if we find the word fiend to be a trifle trite. We have as
much religion as mortals, perhaps more. Even the gods have religion and strive
to increase their power whatever you take power to mean. Tranquility is often
thought to be the greatest power at all."
"Because
it puts you beyond the reach of all other powers," he said, trying to find
tranquility. It was hard. Dahanshri was still too close. He found himself
trying to separate her smell from the cold, snow-wet air. He could. It didn't
make it any easier to focus himself.
"There
is a possible flaw to that thinking," she said, going to the railing and
leaning on it while the wind stirred her hair. "The flaw is that . . . why
should we want to be put beyond all powers? There's no need to bore me with the
Buddhist answer. I have studied these sophomoric philosophies before. You'll
say it's to avoid or end suffering. Is that what The Path of the Enlightened
Devils taught you, Tzu Lung?"
"No.
It said that there was profound pleasure in suffering. That's a bad
translation. There is a profound intensity in suffering that, in retrospect,
becomes akin to pleasure."
"Go
on," she whispered.
"That
by increasing the intensity of emotions one reaches the state of release from
the cycle of birth and death."
"There
is your release not by denying your humanity but in the ultimate expressions of
your humanity. All is permitted, Tzu Lung. You have survived The Path of the
Enlightened Devils."
He
looked at her, the way the light seemed to cradle her lines and curves of her
form. He tried to ignore them. He said, "I have trouble accepting
that."
"Doesn't
that jibe with what Davana Buddhism says? That no actions are inherently
wicked? That nothing is evil by nature? That everything, under the proper
conditions, is permitted?
"Tzu
Lung, the only way you can test your commitment to the principals of Davana
Buddhism is by immersing yourself in the senses. How else can you rightly say
you possess the discipline of your beliefs? You know this in your heart it is
why you left the monastery. It is why you find such wisdom in the world. It is
only by surviving its opposition in confrontation that it is possible to know you
possess an ideal. Monasteries are lifeless, sexless, dead celibacy is achieved
not through discipline but merely removing temptation. But discipline doesn't
need isolation not if its real, Tzu Lung."
She
turned towards him. She walked to him. She put her arms around his neck; he let
her. She brushes her lips against his. Tzu Lung held himself very still, held
himself in a strange paralysis of terror.
She
said, "Smart men are so interesting to seduce. A dumb man would have
thrown me on a bed and fucked me when I touched him. A smart man, a wise man,
must be tricked, first." Then she kissed him and Tzu Lung wanted her too
much to stop. He put his arms around her.
She
kissed. She slipped her tongue inside his mouth. She teased his tongue into her
mouth. She sucked on his tongue. He learned face. He sucked on her tongue. She
bit his lower lip. He lifted her up. He carried her to the bed. He threw her on
the silken sheets. He stripped off her clothes. She pulled off his robe. They
kissed, they kissed, they kissed. Her body was lithe, her skin the color of
bronze, her waist was narrow, her legs long and lean with muscle, her stomach
tight with muscles, her breasts full and dark nippled, her arms lean and her
fingernails were sharp and diamond hard. His body was all knotted muscles, his
skin golden, his shoulders broad, his hands large. He studied her body.
Things
felt for years, things untouched, welled up in him. He touched her. He touched her
throat. He touched her breasts. She smiled at him, she rolled up at him. She
whispered his name. He watched her muscles move. Her skin was beautiful. He
touched it.
She
touched him. She kissed his body. She raised his heat. She pushed him back. She
straddled over him. She guided him into her. She closed her eyes. He thrust up.
He sighed her name. He said, "More."
She
did more. He lost himself in her flesh. He lost his mind all was her flesh,
their flesh, touching together, inside of each other. The discipline of his
life dropped away. When they were done, there was blood and the wet sheets and
the air smelled of sex.
He
stared up at the ceiling in the darkness. She was curled against him. She was
asleep, but asleep lightly. He looked at the arabesques on the ceiling.
He was
not a monk. Dahanshri had cured him of it. He didn't know what he was, anymore.
He asked himself why he had gone into the wilds to read those books. Was it
wisdom? He told himself he went into the world for wisdom, he said he found it
there and he proved it by becoming a hermit studying ancient texts?
He
turned and looked at Dahanshri next to him. Her face was half-smiling, even in
sleep, and one of her arms was over his chest. He could see the curve of her
breasts through a gap in the sheet. He wanted to touch her, again, with a
sudden pain. If she had but opened his eyes he would have found himself lost,
again.
She
was right. Taking oneself away from the world was a petty discipline.
He
looked at the ceiling. He thought of the monks in the monastery. Why were they
there? Was it to honestly study Buddhism and seek enlightenment? With some of
them, it was certainly the case. With others . . . it was merely a way to
retreat from the world. It was cowardice. Seclusion was cowardice.
He
didn't know what to do. He felt a terrible confusion and knew that is what
Dahanshri had counted on. He closed his eyes and went to sleep.
When he awoke, Dahanshri was gone. Where she had been was only a warm spot on
the bed.
He
arose and put on the green robe he had been given. He could get servants to
bring him other clothes while he was a prisoner, he was a very well treated
one.
He
walked out on the balcony. The city was as quiet as it could be. The clouds
were black and dark gray and swirling it was daylight somewhere above him and
there was a haze over the city that made the lights glow with surreal beauty
above and below him on the mountain slope.
A
servant brought in a tray of food. Hardly had he the same servant twice they
were always different people. This one was a young man. He put the food on the
table. He said, "Master, a bath is being prepared for when you are done
with your food."
Tzu
Lung nodded and said, "What is your name?"
"Suman,
master."
"Have
you ever left Shangri-la?"
There
was a pause. "No."
"Where
does the food come from, Suman?"
He
raised his chin, defensively. "I don't know."
"What
do you mean, you don't know? Do you know where food comes from at all? Where
comes the fruits you eat fruits! In this place! What about the wine and wheat?
The rice and sugar?"
"The
masters of the city take care of such things. We all have food enough to
eat."
"Do
you know where it comes from, though?"
"Not
at all."
Tzu
Lung looked out at the city. Since he had arrived, he had not seen a single
growing thing. The city was bare of them. The population never left. They had
never seen a tree, or a field of wheat, or a cow.
Tzu
Lung said, "Suman, you are to be my sole servant, if I must have a servant
at all."
"That
is decided by the masters."
"Tell
them that if they keep changing my servants, I'll start to toss them out the
window. It seems a fair drop to the stones below."
Suman
shrugged. "I'll do as you say, master. Since it isn't my skin on the line,
I'll warn you that the kaulitari might not care if you throw humans from the
balcony. That is, they won't care until they need to feed and you might be
immune to that. You're more important than any mortal I've ever seen to
them."
"My
name is Tzu Lung."
"Master
Tzu Lung."
Tzu Lung
turned and nodded. "Do you know what they have planned for today,
Suman?"
"The
gossip is that they are preparing to awaken the Great Old One. This has
disturbed the rakshasa and mairya. Some say they are attempting to open the
gates to bring in their ancient ones. You are the herald of interesting times,
Master Tzu Lung."
Tzu
Lung laughed, very briefly, at that. He said, "Are there dangers in waking
these old ones, in bringing these ancients?"
"It
has not happened in the memory of the oldest mortal in Shangri-la, but there
are stories of civil wars between the three factions. It is terrible to be a
mortal in such times, more terrible than is usual."
"Is
it very bad to be a mortal in this city?"
"Very
bad, Master Tzu Lung. We know that being born is a punishment and death is a
release but many of us desire to be made kaulitari. We endure and hope."
"Why
haven't you set up a . . . government, amongst yourselves?"
"In
a place where one third of the rule is decided by the rakshasa? Where a second
third is under the sway of the mairyas?"
"I
take your point, Suman."
He
walked over to the table and sat down to eat.
Suman came and summoned Tzu Lung with a pair of ghulams. He was escorted to a
place underground with dead air and two bronze doors ten feet high. Two
kaulitari guards opened the doors while Suman and the ghulams stayed.
Inside
was a large chamber with a ceiling overhead that came to a pointed dome perhaps
sixty feet above him. The air crackled, neither warm nor hot, lit by alchemical
fires in glass domes. Other than Tzu Lung, everyone at liberty was kaulitari.
Not simply the human ones, anymore, either, but the twisted and deformed ones
with dessicated forms and the foul semi-cannibal flesh eaters that reeked of
death far more than the likes of Kakala and Thet-Say. Yet they all wore
ostentatious displays of wealth they were in their best clothes. The company
glittered in silk and diamonds. Likewise, the room was hung with silk
tapestries and filled with fine statuary. Across the chamber from the brass
doors was a smaller door made of Akivashan iron that would not crumble with the
ages: it was circular and set into basaltic moorings. It was covered with old,
old languages now dead; a script Tzu Lung could not make out.
Laid
out was a feast to make the stomach churn. The mritasya such as Kakala and
Thet-Say fed on blood but the bhiti and maraya ate the flesh of mortals. There
was enough laid out for a small army of these kaulitari. The mortals, men and
women both, were all young and, Tzu Lung imagined, succulent to the tastes of
the kaulitari. They were strapped to tables set at forty-five degree angles and
bled by the droplet, or kaulitari chefs with obscene knives would cut and bind
the flesh of living mortals for the tastes of the others, prepared with exotic
spices, on warmed plates. The mortals looked drugged, but they trembled in
pain, horror and . . . humiliation.
Tzu
Lung found his own mind about this different than he imagined. He had expected
to feel some sort of . . . disgust, at least. Moral loathing. But, instead, he
just saw an ugliness, not an obscenity. That worried him, worried him at least
as much as the too-powerful feelings that Dahanshri could evoke him him,
seemingly at will.
Thet-Say
and Kakala came up to him. The two elegant kaulitari flanked him.
Thet-Say
said, "What do you think of our display?"
"It
is merely ugly," Tzu Lung said with a slight sigh. "I think the moral
obfuscation the kaulitari use to justify their feeding, at all, is the
horror."
Kakala
said, "Oh, so the little Buddhist is going to give us a lesson in
morality?" His voice was cold as the grave.
Tzu
Lung turned to Kakala, "Someone should. But the lesson doesn't need to be
Buddhist. As any half-way educated legalist knows, a ruler's right to rule is
dependent on them ruling well. A good ruler does not promote crime, but does
what they can to prevent it you have turned Shangri-la into a maze of horrors
so you can feed. There, then, is kaulitari honor, turning a blind eye to wicked
systems of rule to justify feeding their hunger."
Kakala
said, softly, "You overstep yourself."
Thet-Say
interrupted, "There is only so far we can be pushed, Tzu Lung. You should
not push us in this fashion."
Tzu
Lung said, "Why? You err if you think I fear death."
Thet-Say
said, "There are worse things than death."
"You
brag, Master Thet-Say."
Thet-Say
leveled his eyes on Tzu Lung. Tzu Lung felt as though his mind had been exposed
to a freezing mountain wind. Tzu Lung felt the tremendous urge to turn away, to
turn aside, and submit himself to the will of Thet-Say. Tzu Lung physically
stiffened. He felt his breath go haywire and his heart start to pound. As the
stare continued, Tzu Lung felt all the horror and fears of his soul start to
come up; old memories were give new life to plague him, while as if under a
powerful drug his ability to suppress them or understand those old memories was
destroyed.
Tzu
Lung did not look away. He called upon all the powers of his education and
will. He stood and endured. He controlled his heart and breathing. The parts of
his mind and soul that Thet-Say's glance reached, Tzu Lung ignored.
Thet-Say
turned away. Tzu Lung could feel the anger coming from the kaulitari.
Kakala
seemed to take some perverse pleasure in the humbling of Thet-Say's power. He
said, "The supplication will begin, soon, to summon forth Me-Lha. You were
the element that we did not have."
Thet-Say
said, "You will witness something no mortal has witnessed and survived. Indeed,
depending on the will of our master, you might not survive."
Kakala
said, "You will stay here. To say anything could result in your soul being
stripped from you. Master Thet-Say was no merely bragging when he said there
were punishments worse than dead. Think of the ghulam."
Tzu
Lung nodded. He stood by the wall, on the far side of the room from the iron
door, still as a statue.
He
watched the buzz and snacking of the kaulitari for several minutes more until
one of their number called them to order in a language that Tzu Lung had never
heard, before. The band of them gathered around the iron door in a semi-circle
whose focus was the kaulitari one of the withered maraya who spoke to the door
and the creature beyond.
Then
they seemed to just be speaking to the door. They would bow to the ground, in
unison. They would chant out the old one's name: Me-Lha. Then they would abase
themselves. What age and power! What tremendous experience! And they abased
themselves before not even the creature, but a door, hoping it would open.
Standing
there, Tzu Lung got a flash of understanding. They were hungry for many things,
these kaulitari. Flesh and blood was only a small part of their hunger. They
craved power.
They
were old and experienced. They had powers no mortal could possess, or at least
possess easily. With so much skill, wit, power and experience, why did not the
kaulitari rule the world? Why were they relegated to the charade of their
"justice" to make their existence palatable to the mortal world and
seizing power only in places remote from humanity?
They
had weaknesses. Weaknesses Tzu Lung did not possess after reading The Brutal
Kiss of the Corpse. Did he really possess their strengths? So far, it was
taken for granted that was true.
He was
not merely the fulfillment of one ancient kaulitari's work. He was the way for
them to have real power to be fearless of the sun, to examine without horror
Buddhism and Taoism, to gain access to all the mortal channels of power without
loosing their own.
It was,
fundamentally, about being able to throw off the charade they had hammered
themselves into for endless centuries. It was about creating a world where they
could be themselves without the all-too-difficult discipline that bound them.
Which
is why the rakshasa and mairya were so worried. They were worried it might work
and the kaulitari would get an advantage over them. The balance of power in
Shangri-la and in some world of things inhuman that Tzu Lung scarcely
understood would change with unforeseeable consequences.
The
room became silent with the crack of a bolt. Then the door swung inwards. Tzu
Lung smelled a foetid air boiling from the ancient crypt. Me-Lha stepped out.
Tzu
Lung had gotten the impression that the kaulitari changed over time they grew
in power. Kakala had four hundred years. Thet-Say, who was accounted very old
amongst his people, had more than a thousand years. Me-Lha had ten times that
number of years.
His
form seemed that of a well dressed Mon-Khymer man not even very ostentatious,
like the kaulitari around him, but stylish without being overbearing. He seemed
tall and thin. He seemed handsome. He seemed to have long hair in a braid and a
widow's peak. He seemed to have eyes as blue as any Westerners.
But
Tzu Lung saw something else. It was like a pause-and-flicker across his eyes.
He would see the man and then a flicker of an alien horror would crackle across
his consciousness. He would see angles unmeasured, and extrusions to call them
"tentacles" would be incorrect, though there was a passing
resemblance and strange voids that made Tzu Lung's eyes ache in his head. Was
he the only person to see it? Or was it polite not to notice what their master
had become? Fear screamed in Tzu Lung's mind, and Tzu Lung's mind recoiled at
the visions he saw; he fought for control. He fought for a profound stillness
as being the only way he might live.
Me-Lha
touched the ground. The ground seemed to shake with his weight. Tzu Lung
thought he could feel it up from the soles of his slippers a vibration, an
announcement that made the whole city ring like a bell: Me-Lha has arisen.
Me-Lha
walked past the lesser kaulitari, who stood aside for him. Me-Lha touched a
woman who was on one of the tables. His touch alone drew the blood from her. He
raised his hand and her blood followed he led the trail of glistening scarlet
to his mouth. He drank. She screamed, even the drugs unable to block out the
agony as her body vibrated and seemed to boil with blood streaming into
Me-Lha's mouth.
Then,
without seeming to move at all, Me-Lha was at another person, and another, the
blood following him as he leapt up on a table like an animal and started to
tear at the flesh of a fourth with hands too suddenly like claws full of bloody
meat he crammed in his mouth which expanded to take the gobs.
The
more Me-Lha ate, the faster he seemed to go, blood and screams in his wake.
Tzu
Lung stood very still. The kaulitari stood very still. There was only two
mortals left when Me-Lha was done one man strapped to the wall and looking at
the elder in terror and Tzu Lung standing with greater stillness.
And
then Me-Lha turned his gaze on Tzu Lung. Me-Lha was soaked in gore. His hair
was matted, his face was streaked, his hands smeared with it. Me-Lha smelled of
an abattoir. His breath was full of shit and blood. But when he looked on Tzu
Lung, Tzu Lung felt love. Tzu Lung fell on his knees and groveled. This was not
something any meditation he knew could salve; it was not looking into the eyes
of Thet-Say, where his soul was laid bare but some remnant of Tzu Lung
remained. When Me-Lha looked at Tzu Lung, Tzu Lung temporarily ceased to be.
What was left was only an extension of Me-Lha to be used and discarded.
Me-Lha
came to stand before Tzu Lung, without movement. He looked down at Tzu Lung. He
smiled a beatific smile.
Tzu
Lung rose because it was Me-Lha's will. Me-Lha touched Tzu Lung's cheek.
Me-Lha
turned his glance to the kaulitari. They were as helpless as Tzu Lung before
the old one's will and they relished the feeling of being in the presence of
their ultimate master. Later, Tzu Lung would know that Me-Lha was, really, the
only person in any room he resided. All other "people" were absorbed
into him; Me-Lha emptied them of all their experience and wisdom, all their
knowledge and thought, and it was instantly his forever. By grace, he let the
lesser shells keep it except when he did not.
So
when Me-Lha turned his glance at the kaulitari, the leader of the circle fell
down, clutching at his head. There was a short scream and then nothing at all
the kaulitari crumbled slowly to dust.
It was
the will of Me-Lha.
Then
Me-Lha was gone and personality returned to the individuals. The link was
broken, the old one gone.
Tzu
Lung trembled. He cried, silently, with the violation of Me-Lha's presence
created in him, and the shame of his loss of control burned in his stomach.
Outside the hall, Suman guided Tzu Lung back. The ghulams wandered off to
wherever their orders told them; Tzu Lung had come and survived. They were no
longer needed.
Tzu
Lung was, visibly, in control, again. His face was a careful mask. He said,
"I want to see Dahanshri."
Suman
stopped in the darkened hallway. He said, "Tzu Lung, you jest! She is one
of the rakshasa Inner Chamber and she's rakshasa." He was unnerved.
"The rakshasa don't even pretend to the honor of the kaulitari. They'll
cook you alive and let you live long enough so you can see them eating your
balls or they'll nibble parts off of you and let you live, send you back to
your family a blind cripple with a laugh. The kaulitari were, at least, once
human. The rakshasa never have been, never want to be."
Tzu
Lung fixed his gaze on Suman. Suman trembled and recoiled from it. Suman gasped
in his throat.
"You're
. . . kau--"
"No,
I am something else. And whatever it is I am has taken a desire to see
Dahanshri."
Suman
looked down. He said, "I'll take you as far as I dare to go. I can give
you instructions for the rest of the way."
"Acceptable."
Then Tzu Lung relaxed and put a hand on Suman's shoulder. "You make me
remember the distance between what I am and what I once wanted to be. Seeking
enlightenment is a curse."
Suman
looked up at Tzu Lung without comprehension.
Tzu
Lung said, "Don't worry about my words. Take me to Dahanshri."
Suman guided Tzu Lung through the streets. The fear was an almost physical
force down amongst the people it drove them to acts of madness and desperation.
It had to be that way, to satisfy the "honor" of the kaulitari, to
give the human deathless population of Shangri-la food on which to have their
obscene feasts.
Me-Lha
represented something older than the kaulitari, Tzu Lung's mind told him.
Me-Lha was the deathless before their modern phase, when civilization was
fragile as a butterfly's wing, and there was no need for dissembling. Their
interest in Tzu Lung was to enable them to return to their own pre-civilized
phase and discard all pretense.
Suman
knew the ways. The rakshasa lived in their own quarter of the city. Having a
more varied diet allowed them a greater concentration than the kaulitari the
could certainly rule the city except they were too wild by nature. They did not
play well amongst themselves, being highly territorial and ambitious in their
souls.
They
were also highly religious. Everywhere were Buddhist and Hindu temples and
shrines, the flames of the Zoroastrians, Taoist and Legalist shrines. And they
were being used with devotion by the rakshasa.
Tzu
Lung's own Buddhism, Davana, he knew was based off, in part, the rakshasa.
Walking through the rakshasa quarter and remembering the wild sexual abandon of
Dahanshri, Tzu Lung knew the how the mortal Davana Buddhism was far afield of
the raksasha Buddhism. Part of the central teaching of Davana Buddhism is that
immoral behavior created a statement of intent about how the perpetrator
believed the world ought to be run clearly, by behaving in that fashion, he
accepted that in his world that behavior ought to be the norm. Thus, one would
act in a like fashion against perpetrators without endangering one's own
enlightenment or dharma.
Practically,
the Davana Buddhists used this as a justification for killing in self-defense.
Clearly a person who is trying to kill you to take your possessions has
admitted that violence is a proper way, to him, to resolve disputes. Thus,
killing an armed robber is merely returning to the robber that which the robber
wished to give out: he lived in his world and he died in it. Likewise, the
principle allowed Davana Buddhists to operate in the political sphere without threatening
their dharma or enlightenment Davana moral principles, especially in Tsao Chao,
were sufficiently akin to both Legalism and Confucianism make Davana monks and
nuns welcome in halls of power.
The
rakshasa took the Davana principles to a further extreme: they fully accepted
that by behaving in a given way it allowed like behavior to be rendered to
them, but that it did not damage their enlightenment or dharma. In public
ceremonies, the rakshasa Buddhists engaged in horrific rapes and murders, consumed
the flesh of humans, accepting that like behavior might befall them and they
must accept it unquestioningly.
It was
the lesson he learned, in print, from The Path of the Enlightened Devils
and he saw in actual uses in the rakshasa quarter of Shangri-la.
Suman
shuddered when they got to the noble section of the quarter. He told Tzu Lung
the rest of the directions and then left with more care than he came.
Tzu
Lung wended his way through the rest of the buildings. The magnificent
architecture reared above him, lit by thousands of alchemical fires, while
overhead lightning flickered and thunder roared. Rain came down in a thin
drizzle. Everything glittered in the rain and with the harsh, alchemical
lighting.
Tzu
Lung came to Dahanshri's palace. It had gardens behind a wall guarded by two of
the wolf rakshasa wearing armor in the Akivashan style enameled coats of
chainmail with helmets shaped for their lupine heads holding massive swords on
their shoulders. They stood more than a head above Tzu Lung's height, and Tzu
Lung was a tall man.
He
said, "I am Tzu Lung. I've come to speak to Dahanshri."
One
growled, "Go home, kaulitari bait, before we rob them of their blood and
meat."
Tzu
Lung said, "What must I do to convince you to at least take my message to
Dahanshri? I do not wish to create a scene."
The
other laughed, "You heard him. Get out of here before we send you to
hell."
"By
hell do you mean the quarter of the mairya?"
They
both laughed. The first said, "A more permanent hell than that."
"Ah.
What would happen if I sent the two of you to that hell? I suppose I must
recognize I'm dealing with rakshasa. Would that gain me a measure of respect
and authority?"
"Fuck
off," the first said.
Tzu
Lung whipped around in a circular kick but the rakshasa were fast. The sword
was off their shoulders and they were moving before Tzu Lung's kick hit. But it
did hit the groin of the first even as Tzu Lung trapped the blade of the
greatsword between his arms and shattered the fine Akivashan steel into useless
fragments. The first rakshasa bent double as his the groin kick staggered him
the rakshasa started puking blood and would have been amazed by the kick if he
hadn't been in such pain.
The second
one slashed at Tzu Lung twice, roaring at Tzu Lung, before Tzu Lung found an
opening and passed by the rakshasa. The rakshasa didn't notice something was
wrong until he has spun to follow Tzu Lung then his sword fell to the ground
because Tzu Lung's fingers had pierced fur and skin in a fold of the creature's
bicep, hooked through tendon and vein and torn a great rip from the inside of
the elbow to shoulder. Blood sprayed from the wound as Tzu Lung moved in with
two fists to the stomach, upwards driven by all the ki and physical strength of
his body, to rupture organs and disrupt vital processes. So the second rakshasa
fell, twitching, vomiting, shitting out the last of its life.
The
first got up by that time as Tzu Lung turned to him. Tzu Lung wasn't sure he
had done the right thing. But he felt this was a game not of rules but
dominance.
Tzu
Lung and the rakshasa locked eyes. The rakshasa almost instantly turned away
and said, "I will tell Dahanshri that you are calling."
"Excellent,"
Tzu Lung said. "If you play me a fool and attempt treachery, I'll cripple
you. I won't even kill you. I'll let your pack mates fine creative ways to vent
their no doubt long standing frustrations on your body before you die."
The
rakshasa barked a laugh. "Maybe you're not so bad for a human," he
said, trotting inside the gate.
Some
rat things came while Tzu Lung waited. They came out of the sewers, squeezing
through the drain on the street. Tzu Lung watched as they tore the dead
rakshasa apart and carried it off. He made no move to stop them, though they
seemed skittish and wary of him. It only took seconds before there was no sign
at all, save a few trails of blood being washed away by the rain, that anything
had happened at all.
The
wolf rakshasa returned. He came with another guard. They didn't seem to notice,
or they expected, that the body would be gone. The rats worried Tzu Lung far
more than the guards.
He was
taken to a wonder. Dahanshri's palace was a huge dome inside, there was an
enormous empty space a hundred paces across, filled with a terraced garden with
floating alchemical fires in brass cages providing artificial sunlight for the
exotic blooms. There was the wet heat of the jungle, and the air was fragrant
and heavy. He felt like he was entering a slice of southern Akivasha magically
transported this stormy, cold mountaintop. Scattered about were statues,
tables, chairs, beds it was her living place, as well, everything absurdly
rich, gold and glittering jewels, tons of silk and braiding.
Dahanshri
was dressed in a silk dress so sheer one could see the darker brown of her
nipples pressed against the cream colored cloth and the swish of her legs as
she walked. Just seeing her made Tzu Lung's heart ache. The monastery, he
reflected, hadn't taught him anything about control, really. There was much
gold thread at her throat, cuffs and hem of the gown, but nothing to conceal
her body. She was standing next to an artificial pond as human servants
installed rocks to her specifications.
Tzu
Lung was brought into her presence and the guards left. Dahanshri could defend
herself. Tzu Lung said, "You miss home."
"That
wasn't a question. But I'll answer it, anyway. Yes, I miss Akivasha. There are
tigers in the Shotoragal Mountains, of course, and they are fierce but I come
from a more southernly clime." She paused. "Me-Lha is awake. You
survived. How did it feel?"
"In
all my life, I have felt nothing worse."
"Me-Lha
is a terror. Right now, he is out making a travesty of kaulitari honor. It is
such a farce."
"I
have come to the same conclusion."
"What
do you want, then, Tzu Lung?" she said, touching the line of his jaw.
He
shivered. He wanted her, wanted her body wrapped around him, with a pain
verging on need. He said, "I don't want Me-Lha to . . . walk the earth
like a mortal but with his power."
"He
would bring the earth under his sway, yes."
"Which
puts me in a precarious situation."
"You
perceive it."
"The
rakshasa want me dead, don't they?"
She
smiled. "Yes."
"But
you want to maintain peace with the kaulitari."
"Certainly."
"And
now Me-Lha is awake, which provokes you into doing certain acts. You're raising
a contrary force, an opposition to Me-Lha. This will force the mairya to do the
same."
"As
I said, you perceive it. Before you were told, but now you perceive it with
your own mind."
"I've
decided I don't want to be ground to pieces between these opposing
forces."
"Such
is the danger to yourself."
"You
seduced me so I would come to you when I had perceived what I now perceive. I
have arrived, for I have seen."
"You
are entirely too fast," she said, laughing, stepping close to him. She
wore a perfume of jasmine. Her body brushed up against Tzu Lung. He held his
breath in his throat and then forced himself to breath properly and he had once
tricked himself into thinking he had truly mastered his breathing? He felt very
warm. She continued, "I hope you do manage to survive. I enjoyed our night
together. You're not quite mortal anymore and you have certainly learned much
about controlling your prana. Mine, too. Very interesting."
"That
strikes me as a frivolous compliment," he manages to say. "I am here
because I am not ready for death, or whatever else Me-Lha ultimately has in
store for me. I don't think we should . . . continue our relationship at all."
She
smiled and Tzu Lung hurt somewhere inside of himself. She held his face in a
cupped hand. She said, "Intelligent, strong-willed men, such as yourself,
need a virtually constant seduction. You don't like it when you're not in
control, but part of you craves the release of it. I suspect all humans have
such traits on one hand wanting absolute power over themselves and others
while, on the other hand, wanting to forget the cares and responsibilities of
office and leave important decisions to others."
"You
talk philosophy. I want to talk survival. Mine, specifically."
She
lowered her hand with the same grace she raised it. She smiled, but something
had gone hard in her eyes. She took a step back. She watched the workers work;
they redoubled their efforts. Not looking at him, she said, "Have you
noticed how much temporal power the Buddhas have? You were supposed to rise to
my bait and mention the infamous Buddhist discipline but instead of talking
about it, you managed to show it." She laughed, musical and cold as
northern winds howling from mountain peaks.
Tzu
Lung thought about it. He saw the connection. Akivasha, Tsao Chao, Dang Yan,
Ikkiyu, the varied kingdoms of the Mon-Khymer, the Pratapravan archipelago and
certainly other places: the sway of various forms of Buddhism was vast, and in
all these places Buddhism was influential.
"Buddhism
teaches Buddhists to use reason," she went on. "But my reason sees a
movement as political and temporal as it is spiritual. How many princes and
kings has Buddhism shaped? How many policies lived or died at the whim of an
abbot in a monastery whose word was obeyed by thousands?
"Buddhism
does teach discipline, and it teaches obedience to authority. To Buddhist
authority, a higher authority. By being non-political, Buddhism has managed to
become political."
"A
lesson worthy for a Taoist," he said.
"There
are a lot of rakshasa Buddhists. But we, even in our fantasies, have never come
close to having a bodhisvatta." She turned to face him. She shrugged.
"Perhaps we are not able. Perhaps we represent a state of development that
necessarily requires an incarnation to a form able to become enlightened.
Perhaps we simply can't lie to ourselves enough to convince ourselves that
we're bodhisvatta material. Nevertheless, there is an . . . allure to
enlightenment. So, we are often Buddhists without a bodhisvatta."
Tzu
Lung thought for a moment. "Ah. What if I am a bodhisvatta? What would
that do to the politics of the city?"
"Me-Lha
is not invulnerable. We have an idea, those of us who rule amongst the
rakshasa, that he isn't, really, very bright."
"What?"
"Why
does he need to be bright? You have seen him. You have been there, Tzu Lung. He
uses you brightness, you see? You're brilliant so he doesn't have to be. Me-Lha
isn't smart; he's powerful. Why does someone so powerful as Me-Lha have to
develop intelligence?"
Tzu
Lung laughed, his face brightening. He said, "Before I was sent to the
monastery, I was the strongest of the children my age. I terribly teased the
smart children. I bullied them and thought very little of education. The monks
cured me of it, but I still remember it. How, being strong, I had scorn for
learning. One would think in ten thousand years of experience . . . ."
"Ten
thousand years to learn. Ten thousand years to become set in ones way. Make no
mistake, Me-Lha is expert in the use of power. But his limitations have matched
his experience as they do with all kaulitari. Remember the dread that Thet-Say
and Kakala had at us even bringing up Buddhism . . . the kaulitari cannot
achieve enlightenment, Tzu Lung. They have no balance; they are too cold. They
are dead. They do not age for they do not, in many ways, change."
"You
want to use me to rally the rakshasa . . . ."
"Always
a difficult task. Unity doesn't come easily to us; independence does."
"You
want me to rally your people by claiming to be a bodhisvatta. You believe,
unified, the rakshasa can defeat the kaulitari. This is aided because the
kaulitari fear Buddhism."
"You
have it, now."
"Part
of this depends on an idea you have that Me-Lha is, essentially,
thoughtless."
"We've
watched him for a long time. We have yet to see him do a single thoughtful
thing."
"The
person who wrote The Brutal Kiss of the Corpse was wise. Kakala believes
that person was Me-Lha."
"Do
you believe that?"
He
thought a moment. "No. You're right. I don't. I did not see or feel a
second of wisdom from Me-Lha." He didn't mention the intensity of his
feelings of violation. He said, "How can this plan succeed, Dahanshri? The
moment I face him, again, he will know."
"Then,
Tzu Lung, contrive not to meet him or, meeting him, contrive to keep you mind
and soul your own. It can be done. You have read, if I recall correctly, The
Brutal Kiss of the Corpse. You have read The Path of the Enlightened
Devils. You already possess the wisdom, if not the will or
experience."
"Have
you read them? They're about balances of energy in your body, about
manipulating the energy around him. They are not . . . ." He stopped
himself. He controlled his burst of anger.
Dahanshri
smiled at him. "You should have kept going. You were not just controlling
energy, you were creating it. Surely a Tsao Chaoan Buddhist knows there is no
such things as bad energy, merely bad applications of energy.
"But
you should go, Tzu Lung. If you stay, I'll just lure you into my bed, which
will satisfy us for a while, but leave you more confused. You need to get your
focus back, and keep it, even as you cultivate the passion in your belly."
He
frowned, but the guards had returned, unsummoned, and he kept his brow furrowed
in thought as he was lead out.
As he left the rakshasa quarter, he stopped at one of the Buddhist temples
where a ceremony was going on. Rather than merely watching from the outside, through
the open door, he walked up the stairs and went in, standing near the back.
Across
from him, as in all Buddhist temples, was a statue of a Buddha the Buddha in
this temple was like none he had ever seen. It was what they desired in a
Buddha; a future Buddha; one of them. The Buddha had the features of an
unidentifiable beast, but the same beautiful gaze.
The
ceremony was alien to him. While there were rakshasa near the altar with prayer
beads murmuring their mantras, in the open space in front of the altar were
more savagely fucking. They were tied with wires that cut their skin; they were
scarlet with blood. They were rakshasa; they had no one shape and they melted
from form to form, the wires alternately loosening and tightening with the
transformations. Tzu Lung didn't want to look, but he did; he felt the wild
surges of passion in the bodies. He felt the discipline. He could not, under
those conditions, have sex. He was sure. But they could; they did. They did it
through a type of focus he did not understand, a focus he did not possess and
that was repudiated by human Buddhists.
They
weren't human. Did it matter? Not to a Buddhist, not ideally. But here, in the
temple made hot with blood, sex and prayer, in the surging tides of prana and
ki, he felt that enlightenment was, indeed, different than anything he might
have imagined. That it might not be incompatible with the
spirits-who-wear-many-skins, with blood, with sex.
He was
noticed. He felt ashamed, as if he was watching something private. He went back
outside, into the chill and mist. He was walking down the stairs when one of
the rakshasa, wearing the skin of a human man, wrapped in a cloak stiff with
dried blood from previous uses, came after him.
The
rakshasa said, "Don't be afraid. There is nothing that is not willed going
on."
The
words of a Davana Buddhist! Tzu Lung felt his cheeks flush. He didn't need
Dahanshri to distract him, anymore. He did it to himself. He flung off his
center. He repudiated the ethos of the monastery, with its streamlined
simplicity and easy-to-find moral absolutes. He chose the messy world. He was
finding wisdom, wisdom in books he would never have read, in acts he would
never have done, in scenes he would never have seen.
Tzu
Lung turned to the rakshasa. Tzu Lung said, "You're right. I'm running
because I'm scared."
He
went with the rakshasa back to the temple. The woman he had been giving his
primary attentions to was standing in a silver basin, pouring water over his
skin. Blood and sex washed into the bowl at her feet. With the curious speed of
the rakshasa her wounds were almost completely healed, now. She wore prayer
beads around her neck, hanging between the swell of her dark breasts. The
rakshasa tended to physiques lean and rangy, and she was no different; she had
long, smooth muscles under a bronze skin. She wasn't beautiful, but she exuded
energy and a confident lust that made her attractive. She smiled at Tzu Lung
like she wanted to eat him.
The
male rakshasa said, "I am Nagaja; I am one of the priests of his temple.
Namaste." He put his hands together and bowed towards Tzu Lung.
Tzu
Lung put his hands together and bowed in return. He said, "Namaste. I am
Tzu Lung, formerly of the Monastery of the Seven Oaken Pillars in Tsao
Chao."
"Ah,
you're a mortal follower of Davana Buddhism! You must be surprised."
"There
is a tremendous difference between reading something in a book and seeing
it."
The
woman came over, still nude. Muscles rippled as she moved, legs and belly. Tzu
Lung watched. She said, "Nagaja, he doesn't seem fully mortal to me. He
has too much prana for that."
"The
flow of it is strange, too," Nagaja said.
Tzu
Lung felt more embarrassment. They were not human. They were disciplined, they
were seeking enlightenment, with all that meant. He swallowed and pasted on a
smile. "I have read The Path of the Enlightened Devils."
Nagaja
was taken aback by this. The woman, too. The man said, "And you've studied
the Jade Lion Fang wu shu?"
"Yes,"
Tzu Lung said with a nod. That was absolutely true.
One of
the people praying left their prayers and said, "He is the mortal brought
by the kaulitari. He fulfills their prophecy. It is why Me-Lha has risen."
Tzu
Lung said, "I am part of no prophesy of Me-Lha. I have my own wit and
will, and I do not intend to be forced by them to do anything that would
endanger my soul."
"Would
you die to prevent it?"
"If
I had to; I would prefer to be brave and live to prevent it," Tzu Lung
said, looking at the man who spoke. Things were falling silent. The rakshasa were
turning their eyes towards the scene unfolding.
Tzu
Lung found himself rising up a bit, moving to his toes. It made him lighter on
his feet, faster, and taller. It was Nagaja who turned to the small cluster of
rakshasa who were there and said, "Remember yourselves! Tzu Lung is here
because of the kaulitari, yes, but see with more than your eyes! Look at his
prana! He is clearly not of them. He is closer to what we are, to us, and he
has studied Davana Buddhism." He turned to Tzu Lung. "You were
brought here under duress?"
"Very
much so. Indeed, Dahanshri if the name has meaning, here helped in the
duress."
Dahanshri's
name did mean something. A few of them whispered amongst themselves.
"Then
you were brought here by her, as well?" Nagaja said.
Tzu Lung:
"Yes."
"There
is something afoot, then. We know of Dahanshri, here." There was humor in
his voice. He touched Tzu Lung on the shoulder in a friendly way; his hand was
scarlet with blood. "Come to my chamber, with my companion" he
indicated the lithe woman "and we can talk and drink wine."
Tzu
Lung nodded and the three of them went through a door next to the altar into
Nagaja's chamber. The worshipers half-followed them, but were stopped by a
fierce glance from Nagaja. Tzu Lung remembered the guard at the gate and the
way challenge was a constant part of living as a rakshasa. Did he give so many
signs of being a human, even though as Buddhists they should be beyond that?
The room
was not what one expected from a Buddhist. It was large and circular, with a
dome above that was covered with beautiful paintings of Buddhists scenes but
all the players were rakshasa in various forms. The walls had much golden gilt,
and tapestries of Selucian silk covered the walls. There was the ubitiqious
balcony that looked down on the glittering city and flashing lightning.
Alchemical fires in brass cages against the walls provided a warm light.
Cushions of silk and velvet covered the floors and there was a low table to one
side, and a large bed to another; everything was very neat but the very faint
smell of sex pervaded the air.
Nagaja
said, "This is my companion, Kaladevi."
Kaladevi
smiled and slipped into a light silken robe. She sat at the table, legs folded
under her.
Tzu
Lung said as she sat down, "Namaste, Kaladevi." She only smiled in
return.
Nagaja
got wine and glasses from a beautiful armoire and sat at the table. Tzu Lung
joined them. Nagaja said, "I believe you don't drink wine, correct?"
Tzu
Lung nodded. "That is true."
"Will
you drink wine with us? You are Davana you have read the Path. Will you?"
He
nodded. "I will."
Nagaja
poured wine for them all. Tzu Lung sipped the wine; it was sweet and strong he
was so unused to alcohol he could only sip it slowly. Kaladevi found it amusing
as she and Nagaja drank.
Nagaja
said, "It has always struck me as odd how much we owe to humans. In our
lore, we had achieved the arts of civilization long before you upstart humans
climbed the karmic chain to have the bodies of men and women at all. But it is
from you, from humans, that we get the majority of our inspiration."
"I
saw that," Tzu Lung said, "but I didn't think on it. Coming in, I saw
shrines to Buddhism, Hinduism, Taoism, even Legalism but nothing I looked at
and saw as being, well, your own. I saw it as a sort of proof human wisdom is
the truest."
Kaladevi
said, "You know the flaws in that as well as I do."
Tzu
Lung nodded towards her. "I do, at that."
"Before
Nagaja bores you too much with philosophy, why are you here? There are rumors
about that the kaulitari have summoned up Me-Lha over the fate of a
mortal."
"They
have done that and it is because of me. I have read a sacred text of theirs
without dying or going mad."
"The
Brutal Kiss of the Corpse," Nagaja said. "I've read parts of it
it creates a welling of cold prana in the body and spirit."
Tzu
Lung nodded. "It seems that the kaulitari aren't able to meditate very
well."
"The
lot of them are Hindus and animists. They prefer religions that don't make many
demands," Kaladevi said with scorn.
Nagaja
nodded. "She's disrespectful, but she's right. But you've read it
all?"
"I
believe so," Tzu Lung said.
Nagaja:
"Can it do what they want it to do?"
Tzu
Lung: "No."
Kaladevi:
"Why is that?"
Tzu
Lung: "The way to keep alive and sane is to create a balance at a higher
level."
Nagaja:
"Ah."
Kaladevi:
"The hot prana would destroy a kaulitari. They are too sensitive to it,
too . . . opposed."
Tzu
Lung: "I believe that to be the case. I don't believe that the kaulitari
agree, that they think they can make themselves as I am but they are not. They
weren't human at the beginning of the process."
Kaladevi:
"And what can they learn from you that they don't know? That their problem
is that they are creatures of the cold, dark and night and to be otherwise they
have to acclimate themselves to the scarlet passions?" She laughed.
Nagaja:
"They've waited ten thousand years to learn their sacred text is
wrong?"
Tzu
Lung: "Not wrong. Merely useless to them."
Nagaja:
"I find that ironic.
Tzu
Lung: "There is much to find ironic, there, yes."
Nagaja:
"Do you know why Dahanshri also sponsors you?"
Tzu
Lung shrugged. He sipped the wine and then said, "She wants to be part of the
process, I believe. For political end. And it seems by reading The Path of
the Enlightened Devils that I have achieved some status amongst the
rakshasa as well."
Kaladevi:
"If it is true."
Nagaja:
"It is true. He doesn't have deep understanding of the emotional
principles, but he has mastered the mind-body disciplines. Can't you see the
prana boiling in him, black and scarlet?"
Kaladevi:
"I'm just not so sure that means anything."
Nagaja:
"Do you doubt Dahanshri, then?"
Kaladevi:
"I know she lies when it suits her. It's not a matter of not trusting her.
I do trust her. I just don't believe everything she tells to others. I think
that's just smart, Nagaja."
Tzu
Lung: "I think I agree with that. I don't trust her, but I know she is
canny as a tiger."
The
two of them looked at Tzu Lung. He smiled and shrugged, "Sorry about the
pun."
The
three of them laughed and drank more wine. Nagaja and Kaladevi refilled their
glasses.
Tzu
Lung said, "I think that Dahanshri wants to use me to unify the rakshasa using
religion. She wants to present me as a sort of bodhisvatta."
Nagaja
and Kaladevi absorbed this information in silence, seriously. They drank their
wine.
Tzu
Lung got the first, clearest demonstration of how much power Dahanshri's word
carried in rakshasa circles. Nagaja said, "Is it true?"
Tzu
Lung was taken slightly aback. He said, "I don't know what a bodhisvatta
is, really. From what I've read, however, enlightenment is obvious once you've
achieved it. But . . . all the sacred Buddhist texts are written by others than
the enlightened one. They're all suspect when they describe enlightenment for,
and about this they are clear, as are the words of the bodhis: enlightenment
can't be written down."
Kaladevi:
"Is it possible to be enlightened without knowing it?"
Tzu
Lung shrugged. He said, "I don't feel wise, I don't feel enlightened. I
feel knowledgeable. There's a difference, I think."
Nagaja:
"Knowledgeable about what?"
Tzu
Lung sighed. "I feel I can do tricks. I have learned how to balance prana
at a higher level to survive what I increasingly view as an instruction guide,
not a source of wisdom. I read The Brutal Kiss of the Corpse and what
did I get out of it? I know nothing of the kaulitari. The same is true of The
Path of the Enlightened Devils . I feel power in me, but it is purely a
physical power. I can smash stones with my hands. What of it? That's not
wisdom, that's just knowledge, no different than a smith or carpenter. Perhaps
the simple-minded will confuse knowledge, simply because it's supernal in
origin, with wisdom, but I'm not that foolish."
Kaladevi
leaned close to him, looking at her with smoky eyes, and said, "Why did
you stop here, Tzu Lung?"
He
paused. He looked into his wine cup. He looked at her and said, "Because I
was afraid of how you practiced Buddhism."
Nagaja
said, "Most people wouldn't even call it Buddhism."
Tzu
Lung shrugged. Originally, that charge had been leveled against Davana
Buddhists, too, though the earliest days of the sect were lost in the mists of
history; Tzu Lung suspected ancient Davana Buddhists were far different than
their modern counterparts.
Tzu
Lung said, "I am not most people, Master Nagaja. Am I enlightened? Perhaps
your way is as valid as mine. Perhaps it is more valid. Simply because I do not
understand something doesn't mean anything at all. And . . . if I was just
dismissive, I might have followed that impulse. But I was scared. The rakshasa
scare me with how you do things. When I'm with the kaulitari I might feel a
purely visceral fear for my life, or disgust. I fear you, but not physically. I
want to trace the root of this feeling."
Nagaja
said to Kaladevi, "He could be."
She
nodded. "He has accepted uncertainty and fear as the beginning of
wisdom."
Nagaja
said to Tzu Lung, "It is very hard to accept fear as the beginning of
wisdom, Tzu Lung. I'm not sure I've mastered to do something you're afraid of
doing because you're afraid of doing it, to kill fear, and to seek it as the
obvious place one gets wisdom. We call it the Brutal Teacher, because it is
only by confronting terror that we expand the limits of our wisdom and
experience. But it is hard and kills more than it enlightens and many
eventually loose their stomach for the Teacher."
Tzu
Lung sighed. He looked at them. "Dahanshri is playing some of us as fools,
isn't she?"
Kaladevi
laughed. "That's her way, Tzu Lung. She is the wisest of us,
however."
Nagaja:
"If anyone is, she is the lover of the Brutal Teacher. She has survived
what would destroy anyone I know and learns still."
Tzu
Lung nodded. He finished his wine. He stood up. "I have much to think
about. And . . . I do not even know how I will face Me-Lha when next we meet.
He is . . . terror."
Kaladevi
said, "Face him boldly, Tzu Lung."
Tzu Lung was brought before Thet-Say and Kakala in Thet-Say's rooms. Hail
spaked against the windows and the wind was fierce, finding cracks into the
room that was lit, and warmed, only by the tiny alchemical fires that glowed in
their cages. Tzu Lung could see his breath in the air.
Kakala
was seated to the right of Thet-Say, who was in a massive leather-bound chair.
Kakala said, "We are not pleased you went to the quarter of the
rakshasa."
"I
wasn't aware I existed to please you," Tzu Lung said.
"We
still hold your life in our hand," Thet-Say said.
Tzu
Lung laughed. "You jest," he said. Then he walked forward and slapped
Thet-Say on the face. The crack resounded through the room. "Then kill
me."
Thet-Say
was stunned. He rose, swiftly, and his mind crackled towards Tzu Lung's but
compared to Me-Lha, Thet-Say's mind had no vigor at all. Tzu Lung's mind was,
for a while, at least, inured to the petty horrors of Thet-Say.
So Tzu
Lung slapped Thet-Say, again, this time knocking the kaulitari to the ground.
Kakala was also up, then, trying to push Tzu Lung away but Tzu Lung took a
couple of steps back. His heart was hammering in his chest like a dozen drums
being struck all at once.
Tzu
Lung said as Thet-Say stood, "If you're so confident that you hold my life
in your hands, kill me, Thet-Say. Or we can find how much Kakala values his
centuries, and those he has yet to live send him after me and we'll see if he
can subdue me without having Dahanshri and her rakshasa at hand to help. Or the
both of you." His heart roared so he had trouble hearing himself, but he
went on. "And even if you tear me apart, well, I wonder what you'll see in
Me-Lha's eyes before you're ash and bits of bone on the ground."
Thet-Say
radiated hatred. Not the fury of the rakshasa, but something infinite cold:
hatred. Centuries of it piled up and directed at Tzu Lung who ignored it, or
found against his other fears and with his blood rushing through him that
hatred was a minor thing. He was too hot.
But
the two of the kaulitari stood there.
Tzu
Lung said, "I trust you're beginning to understand the power that Me-Lha
has invested in me. He wants me alive. If he wanted me at something other than
my liberty, he would have prevented me from doing anything at all."
Tzu
Lung then wondered: Why didn't he stop me? The answer suggested itself: He
doesn't understand humans anymore, he doesn't understand threat, anymore.
Tzu
Lung didn't miss a beat: "For the time being, I'm your masters because we
all know that Me-Lha doesn't care about you or you." He indicated Thet-Say
and Kakala. "Me-Lha knows that if you are destroyed there will be a
thousand to take your place, who will do as well as you, and be as loyal. For
the time being, I'm unique."
Tzu
Lung sat down. The two stunned kaulitari stared at him.
Tzu
Lung said, "Sit, please, no reason to be uncomfortable. What is it you had
umbrage with, again, Master Thet-Say?"
It was
Kakala that recovered first. Tzu Lung suspected it was because Kakala was less
used to being in charge, thus he adapted faster to changes in power. He sat
down, lazily, and said, "Master Tzu Lung, you seem to have adapted quickly
to the realities of Shangri-la."
"I
saw no point bemoaning my fate," Tzu Lung said. "What is, is. What
will be is yet to be decided."
Thet-Say,
standing like a pillar of ice, said, "Your fate is written, Tzu Lung.
Perhaps not tonight or by my hand, but it is written."
"You're
mistaking the map for the road," Tzu Lung said and he let the annoyance
rise up in him and then cut it off when it started to cloud his reason.
"But it doesn't matter for you, Thet-say. Sit, speak or leave."
Thet-Say
took a step closer to Tzu Lung and said, "The master wants to see you,
again."
Tzu
Lung looked at Thet-Say and had a sudden urge to pity the kaulitari. Thet-Say
was ignorant of why he gave the orders he did; Me-Lha ordered, Thet-Say obeyed
with no more say in the matter as Tzu Lung's right arm when ordered to rise up.
While Me-Lha was awake, Thet-Say, Kakala and the rest were but empty vessels of
Me-Lha's will. No wonder they feared Buddhism! The first thing they would see
is their chains.
"When
and where?" Tzu Lung said.
"Now,"
Thet-Say replied. "The master is . . . eating."
"And
you stopped to upbraid me, wasting Me-Lha's valuable time. I'm saying this,
now, Thet-Say, so when your master empties my mind the thought might occur to
him that you were derelict in your duty," Tzu Lung said, rising up.
"But you have invoked the one name that, for now, gives me reason to obey
you. Lead on, Thet-Say."
Tzu Lung,
with the two kaulitari on either side, was taken to a hall. Even before the
double doors were opened, Tzu Lung could smell the reek of death. When the
doors opened, his senses were assaulted with it.
Death
doesn't smell like blood, or only in part. The coppery taste is there, the
dying honeysuckles over ripeness is there, but something else is, too, when the
deaths are sudden, violent and filled with fear. Urine. Feces. The stink from
ripped open bowels. The scents churn in the air altogether before the rot sets
in. The scent was enough to cut with a knife.
Tzu
Lung and the two kaulitari stepped into an abbatoir. There were at least a
hundred bodies hanging up like cattle in a slaughterhouse in a hundred
different states of dismemberment. A raised wooden path was set so no one would
get the offal on their feet: the floor was covered with blood, bowels and
chunks of flesh. A head, on a cross-section of the wooden path, still Me-Lha,
turned away or the moment as terror stricken people were brought, herded like
cattle by overseers armed with metal tipped whips, and prepared for the next
bit of Me-Lha's feast. After centuries asleep, Me-Lha was ravenous.
Not a
drop of the filth had touched Me-Lha, but Tzu Lung didn't trust his eyes around
the kaulitari.
He
looked down as the trio of them came to a stop, waiting for Me-Lha to turn his
mind on them. Tzu Lung gathered himself. Tzu Lung prepared his mind and soul.
The words of the rakshasa were in his mind. He tried to see The Path of the
Enlightened Devils as more than a manual for manipulation of prana. It was
a text full of emotional meaning, if he dared to master it.
Fear
washed over him and he suppressed it. He fought the fear with all the tricks at
his disposal; but it gnawed at him, chilling him, and he knew that played into
the hands of the kaulitari.
Then
he said, in his head, Fuck it.
He
raised his head. Me-Lha turned around. Me-Lha turned his mind on them.
Tzu
Lung let himself get angry as the kaulitari started his obscene plunder of Tzu
Lung's soul. He let the anger boil up in him: white hot, burning with scarlet
ki, moving it through the repositories of his soul that were active, intense.
Tzu
Lung did not try to fight Me-Lha's psychic intrusion. Tzu Lung did not do
nothing at all, which was the optimal thing for the kaulitari Tzu Lung actively
welcomed Me-Lha into his mind. Tzu Lung thrust his mind upon Me-Lha. He mixed
their consciousnesses together even as Tzu Lung poured a lifetime of suppressed
rage into his heart and mind.
It was
easy. It was too easy. Tzu Lung was horrified at the power of it at how much he
had repressed within himself. The rakshasa were right, the Enlightened Devils
were right! It was an impediment to enlightenment to simply repress one's
urges; they grew in dark places, they festered, they grew cunning, they
undercut good intentions with hidden, malicious agenda. Now, this lifetime of
denial became a wellspring of fuel for his fire of anger and a flood of scarlet
ki.
When
Me-Lha understood what was going on their minds were mixed. Thet-Say and Kakala
instantly knew something was wrong. They looked at each other, then looked at
Me-Lha, who had a look of confusion on his face. Then confusion turned to a
flickering of pain. Then that pain was shunted to Thet-Say and Kakala. It was
shunted to the mortals.
Everyone
but Tzu Lung and Me-Lha dropped to the ground, writhing it agony. Screams
filled the air.
Me-Lha
put his hands behind his back. He stood facing Tzu Lung four-square.
Tzu
Lung stood with his feet shoulder width. He had his hands together in a typical
Buddhist pose.
They
faced each other. Me-Lha did not easily surrender even an inch of psychic
ground inside of Tzu Lung's mind. Instead, he laid waste. He brought up Tzu
Lung's worst memories and hurled them at Tzu Lung. Tzu Lung relived the death
of his father, the terrors of being a child in a monastery, finding out about
how his mother died of hunger, alone and unloved. Old wounds were relived a
dozen times. His feelings of betray at leaving the monastery were replayed for
him in an endless loop. Night terrors and the psychic abominations of reading
his damned library were pushed against him, altogether. These things were
hurled against Tzu Lung.
He
accepted them. He let them hurt. He cried. He added fuel to the fire. He let
Me-Lha's mind sizzle in the roaring of scarlet ki.
Me-Lha's
agony was transmitted further. Throughout the kaulitari quarter, a bead of
agony in the minds of the deathless grew into a raging fire. Me-Lha gave part
of his pain to them, so he might endure more, longer. Closer at hand, Thet-Say,
on his hands and knees, started to crackle. His skin started to smoke. His skin
started to pucker like a baked eggplant's skin puckers. It started to split.
Rot boiled out of the wounds. Thet-Say didn't even have a voice, anymore.
The
nearby humans started to die. Their minds and bodies were not prepared for what
was being sent against them.
Kakala
got to his knees. He cried, "Master! Please! Stop!" Then he pitched
forward, again, and merely screamed.
Still the
psychic battle between Tzu Lung and Me-Lha raged.
At Tzu
Lung's side, Thet-Say vomited up his bowels. His eyes burst and boiled in their
sockets. His stomach split and his intestines smoking hot poured on the ground.
Thet-Say fell to one side, slipped off the wooden platform and there died.
Kakala
watched his hands shrivel up. He watches his wrists, his arms. He lost his
voice. He felt the life draining out of him.
The
humans died. Their minds ceased and with that complete cessation so went their
hearts. They slumped, slack.
The
death spread, too. The weaker kaulitari, attuned to Me-Lha but without the
reserves of soul others possessed, started to die. They cracked. They crumbled
into dust. They burst into rot.
The
whole city felt pain. There was consternation. There was panic. No one knew
what it meant, save a few, who did nothing to stop the violence that started.
Tzu
Lung weakened. Me-Lha weakened. As the vessels around Me-Lha died or were
rendered unable to absorb his agony, Me-Lha had to deal with it on his own. His
own features began to show more distress. A flicker of eyebrow. A twitch of the
mouth. Then a trickle of blood started running from Me-Lha's nose.
Tzu
Lung said, "Get out of my mind. Get away from my soul."
Me-Lha
touched the blood. He looked at it staining his fingertips in a sort of shock
and horror. Then he withdrew from Tzu Lung's mind. Around Shangri-La, the pain
started to fade.
Me-Lha
licked the blood from his fingertips. He said, "I could destroy you,
physically."
"But
you would never learn from me."
Me-Lha
smiled, very faintly. "You presume to be my master?"
"You
are powerful, not wise, Me-Lha," Tzu Lung said. He carefully controlled
the trembling in his muscles, the fray of his nerves.
"Wisdom?
You still believe in that, Tzu Lung?"
Tzu
Lung nodded. "I do. Nothing I've read, nothing I've seen or felt has done
the least to make me doubt the value of it, either." Tzu Lung laughed,
very lightly, as much as his strength would allow.
"I'm
older than you. I have seen the moving of the cycles our world keeps, Tzu Lung.
I have seen the rise of the elder things, and their fall, and the re-emergence
of humans and Yao. They will fall and the elder things will once more be as
they were, before their hubris destroys them, also, and humans and Yao return
to throw them down from their strange cities and beneath the waves. The world
is a futile cycle. You must know this by now."
Tzu
Lung shrugs. "I don't see how the constitution of the world affects
wisdom, which is not the world. Individuals have to take it on themselves to be
happy and fulfilled, to find peace and enlightenment. That the world engages in
a cycle of civilization is, well, it's irrelevant. The wisdom I speak of is as
true for the elder things as it is for humans, or Yao, or rakshasa or . . .
you. Your nihilism is poorly placed."
Me-Lha
took a step towards Tzu Lung. He said, "You've had a few scant decades on
this world and you lecture to me?"
"Because
it is clear I have learned more in my scant decades than you have in your long
eons. Me-Lha, you are ignorant. You are a titan; you could certainly control a
great nation and the fate of millions. You can command the kaulitari to do your
bidding. I know this is what you plan to return the world to some state it was
in before humans became organized enough to do away with your power.
"For
ten thousand years you've sought . . . temporal power? What a gargantuan waste
of time! What a foul misuse of resource! Rather than doing the slightest thing
to make you and your people happy with what they have which is considerable you
nourish an insane power lust in them?
"If
you do not see the futility in chasing power and how you use your faux nihilism
to justify your greed, I think we have nothing more to say."
With
that, Tzu Lung carefully turned around and walked from the room. Me-Lha did not
try to stop him, but Tzu Lung could feel the kaulitari brooding. It was a
weight on Tzu Lung's back.
Suman
found Tzu Lung and guided Tzu Lung to his chambers. Tzu Lung was barely
conscious when they arrived. Then he slept. His mind was full of the nightmares
and horrors Me-Lha had put there, but he was too weak to waken. A delirium held
him for more than two days while Suman nursed him.
© 2002-2003 by Christopher Bradley. A
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